Title: Begin with the end in mind
Begin with the end in mind. That's the phrase that came into my mind this morning when I was on the train to school. I have thought of the kind of ending I want in my life.
Firstly, I will die a natural death. For me, to die unnaturally, it is a big no-no. I would not want to commit suicide. Because, if I fling myself down some levels as high as 11 storeys, I will end up having my brain all smashed. On top of that, I will be disfigured. This is a bad way to die.
Next, I will not want to be killed by anyone. It is worse than killing myself. I have to pass on, knowing that I have been killed by someone who so dislikes me. No. I won't let myself die like that.
Above mentioned are seriously producing a person who will die without a complete body. I will not want that. I prefer to die a complete body.
I predict the cause of my death would be stomach (gastric) cancer. It is 100% natural death. The reason for dying that way is because i have spotted some symptoms of stomach cancer that i have now. I have had before and still have a loss of appetite, weight loss, diarrhea, bloated stomach (after meal), fatigue, adominal pain, bleeding and vomiting. I seem not to be able to think of other natural way of dying for the time being. Thus, it is an alternative for me to die as a whole and without being disfigured.
I have always been admired by some for being very thin. Especially Purple, whenever Diana, she and i see each other, she would go, "Diana, 我变胖了." Then she would comment that I am so thin and is a good thing that she wants to achieve.To think that she is envious of me being thin and slim, I am actually down with illness.
Also, I want to pass on with many, many, many and many people crying for me because I have impacted their lives. I want to leave the world with a smile of accomplishment. Thus, I will 'begin with the end in my mind', indeed.
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
i am 'tricked'
Title: i am 'tricked'
Oh my.... I was tricked by my own brother. Tricked but it was sure fun. My lanky, younger brother, don't know for what reason, is much taller than me. Ok, i shall stop my usual grumbling.
I was brought to this website where it's supposed to be a game and i had to control my hand strength and direction to direct the cursor without touching the sides, in order to complete the stages. In the end, it was a game that had a trap inserted to scare the freak out of anyone. When i was playing the game, i was tired and when the thing came out from nowhere, i was not really frightened that badly and was slow to react to that silly picture. The game has 3 rounds and i just had problem entering the 3rd round and was not very interested in that game. I could have avoided experiencing it if had insisted taking a nap. To think that my brother kept emphasizing on round 3, it was actually a trick.
To play the game i just played, go to: http://www.winterrowd.com/maze/ or another game that aims at scaring you: http://www.embosscreative.com/warnerbros/exorcist/exorcistgame.html.
For cousins, you can locate the links at our blog - http://www.asccdckbkcmntstswcya.blogspot.com/. Kwan Boon's recommendation - Must Try!
Oh my.... I was tricked by my own brother. Tricked but it was sure fun. My lanky, younger brother, don't know for what reason, is much taller than me. Ok, i shall stop my usual grumbling.
I was brought to this website where it's supposed to be a game and i had to control my hand strength and direction to direct the cursor without touching the sides, in order to complete the stages. In the end, it was a game that had a trap inserted to scare the freak out of anyone. When i was playing the game, i was tired and when the thing came out from nowhere, i was not really frightened that badly and was slow to react to that silly picture. The game has 3 rounds and i just had problem entering the 3rd round and was not very interested in that game. I could have avoided experiencing it if had insisted taking a nap. To think that my brother kept emphasizing on round 3, it was actually a trick.
To play the game i just played, go to: http://www.winterrowd.com/maze/ or another game that aims at scaring you: http://www.embosscreative.com/warnerbros/exorcist/exorcistgame.html.
For cousins, you can locate the links at our blog - http://www.asccdckbkcmntstswcya.blogspot.com/. Kwan Boon's recommendation - Must Try!
Monday, November 26, 2007
sorry
Title: sorry
I have thought through and shall now write about it. What does sorry mean to you? The first image appears to you is ....
For me, the moment when one says sorry, it defines the willingness to acknowledge own mistake as one will feel uncomfortable within for the things one did and owns up for the sake of lightening the psychological burden. It feels like a judge would say in a court, "You are guilty"and the plaintiff's fate is sealed for his evildoings. Also, the subsequent feeling can be as if one is brought down to his knees to ask for the other forgiveness. When the receiving party feels fully what has just been mentioned, the sincerity has been felt truly and the word 'sorry' has been exercised to its fullest potential. Then one would hope that his apology would be accepted. Greatness of the word 'sorry' is that it makes anyone who uses it a better person with sincerity because one will put in effort to avoid the pitfalls one has been through.
Sorry works, doesn't it? In an argument, once one says sorry, it marks the end of a war and peace treaty is signed when both agree that apologising is the way to end. But sometimes, due to human nature, thing is made complicated. After one apologised, the offended party might just harper on the incident which the guilty party for his wrongdoings when another fight is incurred. Thus, sorry seems to only work for a while. Human is just complicated. To bring up the past matter, the once-upon-a-time-agreed treaty was broken. It reminds the guilty party what was done. The word 'sorry' can't bury that unhappy past when the other party who belongs to a personality that likes to bring up the past.
I have thought through and shall now write about it. What does sorry mean to you? The first image appears to you is ....
For me, the moment when one says sorry, it defines the willingness to acknowledge own mistake as one will feel uncomfortable within for the things one did and owns up for the sake of lightening the psychological burden. It feels like a judge would say in a court, "You are guilty"and the plaintiff's fate is sealed for his evildoings. Also, the subsequent feeling can be as if one is brought down to his knees to ask for the other forgiveness. When the receiving party feels fully what has just been mentioned, the sincerity has been felt truly and the word 'sorry' has been exercised to its fullest potential. Then one would hope that his apology would be accepted. Greatness of the word 'sorry' is that it makes anyone who uses it a better person with sincerity because one will put in effort to avoid the pitfalls one has been through.
Sorry works, doesn't it? In an argument, once one says sorry, it marks the end of a war and peace treaty is signed when both agree that apologising is the way to end. But sometimes, due to human nature, thing is made complicated. After one apologised, the offended party might just harper on the incident which the guilty party for his wrongdoings when another fight is incurred. Thus, sorry seems to only work for a while. Human is just complicated. To bring up the past matter, the once-upon-a-time-agreed treaty was broken. It reminds the guilty party what was done. The word 'sorry' can't bury that unhappy past when the other party who belongs to a personality that likes to bring up the past.
Sorry has the power to make one vulnerable. It has made one weak and unfortunately or fortunately, increased the bargaining power of the receiving party. If it is unfortunate, then it has to be that the offended person is a nasty individual who likes to take advantage of others when they are weak. However, for some who have good character, he will not make use of the siuation to his own advantage but makes a good friend with the person who issues sorry. What's more, a true friendship might even be fostered or grown in strength.
To say sorry, one bears all responsibilities. So for whatever mistakes made in the incident, regardless of who did what, the person takes up the tag of i am guilty and shall be remembered for life that i have done this and this which caused so much happiness in who and who. A silly memory that will be with you for life if the matter is of great importance.
The empathy is felt. Instead, sorry brings one to the level where he and the hurt party share the burden. The barrier is still there sometimes. The person who feels the hurt does not believe it and may think that he is hypocritical. But somehow, with perseverance, the person may accept it.
Sorry is not hard for me to say. I can apologise right away if I am in the wrong. But the issue is that, I sometimes found that sorry cannot help me much when damages are done. Even though I may apologise, I cannot erase the mistake. However, the apology I issue is dependent on the offended one if he/she wants to accept it. So I can only regret when my apology is rejected.
The usage frequency of the word plays a great part too. If the word is used too often, one loses credibility. Sincerity in each sorry said has sadly eroded. For example, if you broke a promise to meet your friend at 8am, in school, you turned up only at 8.15am and you apologised. For the first try, sorry is readily accepted generally and your friend might even add in some comforting words, "I understand". But try to be late for the next few appointments, the image of you is further imprinted in your friend's mind. Try to say sorry again, it won't work wonders for you anymore, sorry.
To restrain the use, it would help alot. By saying so, it does not mean that if one is in the wrong, he should reduce using the word 'sorry'. Instead, it is meant that preventing any collision of interests will decrease the use of the word 'sorry'.
Sorry, if i have made you so sick of seeing this full-of-sorry post, haha.
Sunday, November 25, 2007
Shooting day
Title: Shooting day
The last shoot was held at Diana's house yesterday. Evangeline acted. Although i did not get to see all her acting, i still remember the line, "Mum, i am home." haha. Gerry came also. While the filming was going on, we had nothing to do and started playing chi-go-pa. It was done silently.
I was haunted by my past when Sonia asked for my chinese name. I was called a canned chicken. That was my primary school nickname. It was so long ago i was called that.
The last shoot was held at Diana's house yesterday. Evangeline acted. Although i did not get to see all her acting, i still remember the line, "Mum, i am home." haha. Gerry came also. While the filming was going on, we had nothing to do and started playing chi-go-pa. It was done silently.
I was haunted by my past when Sonia asked for my chinese name. I was called a canned chicken. That was my primary school nickname. It was so long ago i was called that.
Diana and i crapped alot too. I was inspired by Sonia yesterday to crap. I was standing at Diana's room door and Sonia needed to go by that way often. So I kept making way for her and she apologised till i was struck with an idea to tease her. So when she came again, i said,"Sonia needs the way." Then her name became Soni. no offence, joking only. Diana added the word "ar". So it was "Soni Ar". I would start saying "Soni", followed by Diana's "Ar". Evangeline chipped in some idea and made a joke out of it - Soni has a good friend called Eric. So it was "...." "....", (you should know what i mean). haha.
It was a long day for everyone - the castes, Kane, Gek Peng, Nick, Khair, Sindhu, Mano, Sonia, Gerry, Wee Kuang, Diana and Evangeline. Thanks for the hardwork and the many shots taken. You made good use of the time yesterday.
"place your straightened hand with your fingertips on your lip. Then move them away from your lip, forward and then downward." To someone who understands it and you are not forgotten for your effort.
Shooting fun
Title: Shooting fun
One of the most incredible things that i had done these few days was i did not sleep much. Also, i reached home as late as when all my family members turned in and left home early in the morning when mum was still asleep (what a rare case!).
Thursday's night was spent in school till 11pm. By the time i reached home, it was then 12 am. I slept and woke up at 1am continued doing assignment till the next day when i left house at 6plus am for school.
It was friday. I handed in an assignment that very day. It signalled some form of relief for me. But yet, another few assignments are due again soon.
While i was still rushing the friday's project, i was scheduled to meet the others for filming. I managed to get SiuWen, Amy, Dorothy, Gerry for my shooting. Well, it was quite an enjoyable session as we managed to have fun joking. Thanks to Diana, my nickname as Bamboo is known to more people. As the scene was taken without sound, we needed to pretend we were talking about projects by talking craps.
In one of the shots, I was asked the question - Are you a bamboo? - thrice. So i answered," yeah, i am a bamboo." I even said "straight down" with both my palm facing each other and moved them downwards like a chopper to illustrate my figure was as good as a bamboo.
There was one shot that was taken from Gerry's back. Because Gerry is too tall when he was seated, he was asked to slide lower while sitting for about 3 times. haha. Siu Wen drew a bamboo of me and Diana helped to improve the drawing by adding a spectacle. It was a good artwork.
Me: Don't go to hospital!
Siu Wen and Diana's ARTwork: I Like IT.
One of the most incredible things that i had done these few days was i did not sleep much. Also, i reached home as late as when all my family members turned in and left home early in the morning when mum was still asleep (what a rare case!).
Thursday's night was spent in school till 11pm. By the time i reached home, it was then 12 am. I slept and woke up at 1am continued doing assignment till the next day when i left house at 6plus am for school.
It was friday. I handed in an assignment that very day. It signalled some form of relief for me. But yet, another few assignments are due again soon.
While i was still rushing the friday's project, i was scheduled to meet the others for filming. I managed to get SiuWen, Amy, Dorothy, Gerry for my shooting. Well, it was quite an enjoyable session as we managed to have fun joking. Thanks to Diana, my nickname as Bamboo is known to more people. As the scene was taken without sound, we needed to pretend we were talking about projects by talking craps.
In one of the shots, I was asked the question - Are you a bamboo? - thrice. So i answered," yeah, i am a bamboo." I even said "straight down" with both my palm facing each other and moved them downwards like a chopper to illustrate my figure was as good as a bamboo.
There was one shot that was taken from Gerry's back. Because Gerry is too tall when he was seated, he was asked to slide lower while sitting for about 3 times. haha. Siu Wen drew a bamboo of me and Diana helped to improve the drawing by adding a spectacle. It was a good artwork.
Thank you for helping. Appreciated.
Gerry: Luckily you have a patient friend for this (referring to shoot).Me: Don't go to hospital!
Siu Wen and Diana's ARTwork: I Like IT.
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Project again!
Title: Project again!
Today was another project-dominated day. It is ending soon. We were all doing project till Diana fell asleep and had problem getting focused. I think she has overworked herself. Anyway, some of us laughed when Xin Yong asked Wee Kuang to lower his voice. Apparently, Xin Yong did a funny expression.
But i sense that my project is heading for completion sooner and i am excited.
For some publicity, a cousin blog is set up. Do visit it, cousins! I think it is the work by Aaron and Kwan Boon. haha. It seems cool that cousins can have a common platform to communicate now.
Today was another project-dominated day. It is ending soon. We were all doing project till Diana fell asleep and had problem getting focused. I think she has overworked herself. Anyway, some of us laughed when Xin Yong asked Wee Kuang to lower his voice. Apparently, Xin Yong did a funny expression.
But i sense that my project is heading for completion sooner and i am excited.
For some publicity, a cousin blog is set up. Do visit it, cousins! I think it is the work by Aaron and Kwan Boon. haha. It seems cool that cousins can have a common platform to communicate now.
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
project is ending one-by-one
Title: project is ending one-by-one
The work is peaking while deadlines are nearing. These contribute the ultimate stress in me. Anyway, i am starting to like the feeling of being busy. If i could sleep 4 hours a day, the rest of the hours are contributed to work, play, i would gladly accept that.
With so many projects due one-by-one, i have to have the energy to last the race. There is one thing that Diana and i agree, it is not possible that we would not finish our assignment. I am looking for weekends when i can recover all my sleeping hours. For me, if i sleep too much, i would get sleepy.
Conquer of the night: I had hokkien mee for dinner. Guess what, the stallholder who never talked to me besides telling me the price of the food previously on many many occasions, told me this: "这是最后一份" haha. I was lucky to buy the last pack.
Back to doing project for now. What a random post!
The work is peaking while deadlines are nearing. These contribute the ultimate stress in me. Anyway, i am starting to like the feeling of being busy. If i could sleep 4 hours a day, the rest of the hours are contributed to work, play, i would gladly accept that.
With so many projects due one-by-one, i have to have the energy to last the race. There is one thing that Diana and i agree, it is not possible that we would not finish our assignment. I am looking for weekends when i can recover all my sleeping hours. For me, if i sleep too much, i would get sleepy.
Conquer of the night: I had hokkien mee for dinner. Guess what, the stallholder who never talked to me besides telling me the price of the food previously on many many occasions, told me this: "这是最后一份" haha. I was lucky to buy the last pack.
Back to doing project for now. What a random post!
Sunday, November 18, 2007
Penguin
Extracted from: http://www.meltx.blogspot.com/
feel as stone as a penguin
just wanna do i/s/o/lation
no feel to blog
hahhaaa
BUSY
tata XD
just wanna do i/s/o/lation
no feel to blog
hahhaaa
BUSY
tata XD
Friday, November 16, 2007
a busy day for me
Title: a busy day for me
I had a sudden quiz, in lecture this morning. By right, i should not have gone for the 9am lecture with the intention of skipping it. But the news that there is a quiz made me, Wee Kuang and Diana go for the lecture. Also i had barely slept from 4.30am to 6plus in the morning. I was tired and had to rush an assignment.
It was one of those times that i did not know how to answer even a single question. How rare! Luckily the quiz did not have high weightage and i can still recover the points by doing well for other 2 subsequent quizzes.
After completing the quiz, i went straight back to canteen 1 for marketing communication assignment. I had been skipping lectures these few days not for fun but for worthwhile purposes. I was telling Diana that, "The feeling of skipping lesson was great. I am special in a way and everyone still needs to attend classes while we are out here when we supposed to have class."
I then had a meeting till 5pm before i could go for Project Nuts. What's more, when i was helping out, i was drained and i was supposed to do crowd control. To control crowd, i would sometimes ask the participants to move away from tracks. Maureen was sometimes at her station with Melise guarding the belongings. However, Maureen being bored there, came looking for me as i was stationed at the actual event venue where she could see the race.
After that, i left my duty place and went along the running route with Maureen and we saw Pak Wing and then Derek. They had fun cheering the runners. At the end of it, Maureen claimed she did alot of merits - crowd control, road marshal, guard locker. haha. Pak Wing was teasing Maureen, "Auntie."
I had a sudden quiz, in lecture this morning. By right, i should not have gone for the 9am lecture with the intention of skipping it. But the news that there is a quiz made me, Wee Kuang and Diana go for the lecture. Also i had barely slept from 4.30am to 6plus in the morning. I was tired and had to rush an assignment.
It was one of those times that i did not know how to answer even a single question. How rare! Luckily the quiz did not have high weightage and i can still recover the points by doing well for other 2 subsequent quizzes.
After completing the quiz, i went straight back to canteen 1 for marketing communication assignment. I had been skipping lectures these few days not for fun but for worthwhile purposes. I was telling Diana that, "The feeling of skipping lesson was great. I am special in a way and everyone still needs to attend classes while we are out here when we supposed to have class."
I then had a meeting till 5pm before i could go for Project Nuts. What's more, when i was helping out, i was drained and i was supposed to do crowd control. To control crowd, i would sometimes ask the participants to move away from tracks. Maureen was sometimes at her station with Melise guarding the belongings. However, Maureen being bored there, came looking for me as i was stationed at the actual event venue where she could see the race.
After that, i left my duty place and went along the running route with Maureen and we saw Pak Wing and then Derek. They had fun cheering the runners. At the end of it, Maureen claimed she did alot of merits - crowd control, road marshal, guard locker. haha. Pak Wing was teasing Maureen, "Auntie."
a busy day for me
4.30am
Title: 4.30am
Oh my... I am still awake at this timing - 4.30am. haha. I just got scolded half an hour ago for staying up so 'early'. Well, i can't help it but assignments are increasing their weight on me. What's more, i am going to have Project Nuts later. It is Maureen's 好介绍 (recommendation). Perhaps i have already gone nuts before doing that event. Time to sleep for a while. This is earliest timing i am going to sleep since the opening of school. I am going to be a walking zombie soon.
Oh my... I am still awake at this timing - 4.30am. haha. I just got scolded half an hour ago for staying up so 'early'. Well, i can't help it but assignments are increasing their weight on me. What's more, i am going to have Project Nuts later. It is Maureen's 好介绍 (recommendation). Perhaps i have already gone nuts before doing that event. Time to sleep for a while. This is earliest timing i am going to sleep since the opening of school. I am going to be a walking zombie soon.
Thursday, November 15, 2007
Scam or not
Title: Scam or not
I was totally surprised by what happened. I just could not believe i've got cheated. If i had known i would be cheated of $1.95, i would rather take train with Gerry and Melise ( a longer route home) just to avoid a simple scam.
The thing started when Maureen and the rest were sitting opposite to me and Amy. So when Maureen stood up and allowed a seemingly sick guy her seat, Fish and Evangeline immediately swapped places with Danny and Derek respectively. To me, i was like, "what a reaction!" haha. Anyway, the funny thing was that I was told by Maureen she even lent her bottle to the guy for a drink (Maureen's bottle can be used as display only in her house). The guy was using a cloth. He used much force in his grab around his towel to cover his mouth and his frequent actions of wanting to puke (but never successfully vomitted) crafted him a perfect role as a patient. Oh my, that instant i thought he was really unwell. Derek could be seen very concerned with him and kept talking to him.
When it was Clementi Station, Maureen, Derek, Mr. Alfred, Evangeline, Amy and Fish left. I still remember Maureen saying to me,"Hey Kwan Chet, sit over here and take care of him." (好介绍,Maureen) haha. That was the key point in the progress to the climax.
I even talked to him. So he said he was living in America for the past 2 years and just came back the day before. So he was not used to the train. I was already doubting if he had really stayed in USA. Firstly, he did not even have the accent and he was just not exhibiting the behavior of a typical American.
Reaching Jurong East Station, he began searching his bag and then claimed his card was lost. I being kind-hearted followed him, with Danny and Yi Da to the MRT control room. When he was asked to pay his $1.95 fare because he took the train from Punggol, he did his classic search but this time into his wallet. The end-result, needless to say, was he has got no money. I then offered to pay. The thing when he walked out past the gate, he kept looking back while walking away. Danny even claimed that he smiled (a wicked one, i guess). I even asked him where he was going. He said he wanted to see a doctor now and going back to Punggol where he lived. Yi Da was the "best". He was talking on the phone all the time. He was still talking after the person left. I had to stop him from chatting on the phone. Then he said he saw the person a few times and once on MRT when the train was going towards Pasir Ris and he was on the phone asking how to go to Woodlands. (oh my, made me felt i was really cheated)
Anyway, Maureen told me that she and the rest who alighted at Clementi were happy that they did a good deed. But for me, i did also. But was it really for someone in need?
Something bemuses me was that he might not be cheating me as he might really be sick. Also, a person would not cheat for just $1.95. Did he cheat or not?
I was totally surprised by what happened. I just could not believe i've got cheated. If i had known i would be cheated of $1.95, i would rather take train with Gerry and Melise ( a longer route home) just to avoid a simple scam.
The thing started when Maureen and the rest were sitting opposite to me and Amy. So when Maureen stood up and allowed a seemingly sick guy her seat, Fish and Evangeline immediately swapped places with Danny and Derek respectively. To me, i was like, "what a reaction!" haha. Anyway, the funny thing was that I was told by Maureen she even lent her bottle to the guy for a drink (Maureen's bottle can be used as display only in her house). The guy was using a cloth. He used much force in his grab around his towel to cover his mouth and his frequent actions of wanting to puke (but never successfully vomitted) crafted him a perfect role as a patient. Oh my, that instant i thought he was really unwell. Derek could be seen very concerned with him and kept talking to him.
When it was Clementi Station, Maureen, Derek, Mr. Alfred, Evangeline, Amy and Fish left. I still remember Maureen saying to me,"Hey Kwan Chet, sit over here and take care of him." (好介绍,Maureen) haha. That was the key point in the progress to the climax.
I even talked to him. So he said he was living in America for the past 2 years and just came back the day before. So he was not used to the train. I was already doubting if he had really stayed in USA. Firstly, he did not even have the accent and he was just not exhibiting the behavior of a typical American.
Reaching Jurong East Station, he began searching his bag and then claimed his card was lost. I being kind-hearted followed him, with Danny and Yi Da to the MRT control room. When he was asked to pay his $1.95 fare because he took the train from Punggol, he did his classic search but this time into his wallet. The end-result, needless to say, was he has got no money. I then offered to pay. The thing when he walked out past the gate, he kept looking back while walking away. Danny even claimed that he smiled (a wicked one, i guess). I even asked him where he was going. He said he wanted to see a doctor now and going back to Punggol where he lived. Yi Da was the "best". He was talking on the phone all the time. He was still talking after the person left. I had to stop him from chatting on the phone. Then he said he saw the person a few times and once on MRT when the train was going towards Pasir Ris and he was on the phone asking how to go to Woodlands. (oh my, made me felt i was really cheated)
Anyway, Maureen told me that she and the rest who alighted at Clementi were happy that they did a good deed. But for me, i did also. But was it really for someone in need?
Something bemuses me was that he might not be cheating me as he might really be sick. Also, a person would not cheat for just $1.95. Did he cheat or not?
Monday, November 12, 2007
First Sight Feel, the Strongest - Part III
Title: First Sight Feel, the Strongest - Part III
Despite the bad dream that he just experienced, Teht decided to give it a try. Just then, Vel walked past. So he gathered some pace as he proceeded from walking behind his target to walking just right besides her, with an arm length gap. He plucked up his courage to ask the girl of his dream.
"Hi Vel, do you still remember me?", Teht asked.
"You?", Vel was full of questions in her as to who he really was.
After some brief thinking, she managed to figure out who he was. So Teht started a small talk with her and managed to get her contact number. He was instantly filled with happiness that he succeeded in his maiden mission - get contact. After all, he had yet to date a girl or even pick up the little courage to speak to a girl face-to-face alone for all his life.
Well, being an amateur in the game of love, he decided to seek help from relevant but trusted parties. The first person to consult in his trusted aide's list was his close, close and really close friend - Jiron. Why close, close and close friend? First of all, he lived next door to Teht. Secondly, he was Teht's childhood friend, primary school, secondary school, college and even till now, his university mate. The third reason for being close was because Jiron who ended class and arranged to meet Teht, was standing, within inches in front of Teht, who coincidentally thought of who could help him. To Teht, that was really close.
Jiron was already attached for some years. Being experienced, he educated Teht on the matters of heart. He first told Teht not to hurry things. Instead, he suggested him to take the 'calmed' approach.
So he went, "It is always like that. Newcomers do not understand the phrase, 'Haste makes wastes'."
"Take it easy, buddy and fate plays a part," he told Teht.
Indeed, the phrase 'fate plays a part' was crucial for Teht. For days, he did not contact Vel and his head which was running images of her all time, drove him madly in love. But days later ....
To Be Cont'd...
Despite the bad dream that he just experienced, Teht decided to give it a try. Just then, Vel walked past. So he gathered some pace as he proceeded from walking behind his target to walking just right besides her, with an arm length gap. He plucked up his courage to ask the girl of his dream.
"Hi Vel, do you still remember me?", Teht asked.
"You?", Vel was full of questions in her as to who he really was.
After some brief thinking, she managed to figure out who he was. So Teht started a small talk with her and managed to get her contact number. He was instantly filled with happiness that he succeeded in his maiden mission - get contact. After all, he had yet to date a girl or even pick up the little courage to speak to a girl face-to-face alone for all his life.
Well, being an amateur in the game of love, he decided to seek help from relevant but trusted parties. The first person to consult in his trusted aide's list was his close, close and really close friend - Jiron. Why close, close and close friend? First of all, he lived next door to Teht. Secondly, he was Teht's childhood friend, primary school, secondary school, college and even till now, his university mate. The third reason for being close was because Jiron who ended class and arranged to meet Teht, was standing, within inches in front of Teht, who coincidentally thought of who could help him. To Teht, that was really close.
Jiron was already attached for some years. Being experienced, he educated Teht on the matters of heart. He first told Teht not to hurry things. Instead, he suggested him to take the 'calmed' approach.
So he went, "It is always like that. Newcomers do not understand the phrase, 'Haste makes wastes'."
"Take it easy, buddy and fate plays a part," he told Teht.
Indeed, the phrase 'fate plays a part' was crucial for Teht. For days, he did not contact Vel and his head which was running images of her all time, drove him madly in love. But days later ....
To Be Cont'd...
Saturday, November 10, 2007
Friend Account's expanding
Title: Friend Account's expanding
I have got to know a complete stranger and became friend with him just tonight. haha. My friend account is increasing at a rate faster than before. Oh my.... I can't help but keep making more friends. I have known alot of friends for the past 2 months but i got to know them either by the camp or friend's friend. But what had just happened for me was (i am at a loss of words).
Sara and i got to know Malcolm who needed a handphone to make a call. So we were approached. The get-to-know session kicked off when Sara asked Malcolm to take a seat while he was calling. To say the truth, i am envy of Malcolm. He's been to many countries in the world. He's simply well-travelled. Maybe Sara and i should meet up with him for a tennis session or even a meal at Serangoon Village. Today's befriending session was one of its kind. Sara, thank me as you got to make a new friend.
I am only delighted that my social circle is widening, and i hope it is expanding in diversity too. haha. I crave for a travel to other countries.
Anyway, i am now pinning my hopes on getting to Jay Chou's concert via lucky draw. I have never entered lucky draw contest previously. Will i get lucky?
I have got to know a complete stranger and became friend with him just tonight. haha. My friend account is increasing at a rate faster than before. Oh my.... I can't help but keep making more friends. I have known alot of friends for the past 2 months but i got to know them either by the camp or friend's friend. But what had just happened for me was (i am at a loss of words).
Sara and i got to know Malcolm who needed a handphone to make a call. So we were approached. The get-to-know session kicked off when Sara asked Malcolm to take a seat while he was calling. To say the truth, i am envy of Malcolm. He's been to many countries in the world. He's simply well-travelled. Maybe Sara and i should meet up with him for a tennis session or even a meal at Serangoon Village. Today's befriending session was one of its kind. Sara, thank me as you got to make a new friend.
I am only delighted that my social circle is widening, and i hope it is expanding in diversity too. haha. I crave for a travel to other countries.
Anyway, i am now pinning my hopes on getting to Jay Chou's concert via lucky draw. I have never entered lucky draw contest previously. Will i get lucky?
Friday, November 9, 2007
Improvement
Title: Improvement
A moment ago, i just found that value-adding and appreciating mean the same in a way. Both have the meaning of increasing in value or number. This obviously means improvement. So it leads me to thinking again.
So if i value add and appreciate what others have done for me, i will be an improved person. I wish i can. Suddenly, everything is full of 'positives'. I need to think positive and i want improvement.
A moment ago, i just found that value-adding and appreciating mean the same in a way. Both have the meaning of increasing in value or number. This obviously means improvement. So it leads me to thinking again.
So if i value add and appreciate what others have done for me, i will be an improved person. I wish i can. Suddenly, everything is full of 'positives'. I need to think positive and i want improvement.
Wednesday, November 7, 2007
How to value-add? Why value-add? Then appreciating
Title: How to value-add? Why value-add? Then appreciating?
I think i have learnt that the world i live in means an exchange of benefits in all aspects.
For a business to be viable, value adding is important. Perhaps the reason that some businesses survive while others do not, boils down to the fact - value-adding. If the products do add value to (or benefit) the consumers, the products can be sold and thus handsome profits can be raked in. For example, one buys a computer because he/she needs it for his/her projects anywhere (need) and laptop provides portability (benefit). The larger the value it adds, the greater the profits will be. In short, value-adding will create a simple consumer's demand for the product and ultimately customer satisfaction.
Well, in the area of relationship, value-adding does exist. When you are in need of help, probably you will turn to the people whom you can trust, e.g. friends, family. So when the trusted fellow that you seek help from provides really good help in one way or another, it does value-add to the situation you are in. In the long run, the relationship can be better maintained and improved by looking out for each other.
But a usual relationship starts because of value-adding, doesn't it? It applies to a boy courting a girl too. When a boy does skirt-chasing, he may spend alot financially, emotionally or even in terms of time. But the interaction with someone he does admire/like, he will still gather the very least - sweet moments that he has with the girl. For the girl, she gains in terms of self-confidence and is showered with perhaps gifts.
Although i do express such that relationships are like business transactions here, i strongly believe that relationship with closed ones (not necessarily the person must be living physically close to you, haha) is built upon beyond value-adding. Other major factors like trust, being sensitive towards others, do count in. One of the greatest products that my friends gave me is their presence. The presence that they gave is more than being there. Hanging around with them is sometimes costly because a meal can easily cost me at least $12, the company they give can be really expensive and priceless. Sincerity coupled with actions, is still the best mode of expressing one's appreciation for the others.
There are times i feel that one really needs to express verbally his/her appreciation for what the closed one has actually done for him/her. But i guess it is really hard in a way to say face-to-face that someone is great for me. I will keep it in my heart and through the non-verbal connection known as telepathy that i hope my closed companions will feel appreciated. Sad to say, it fails most of the time, i guess. Phrases like "i miss you" are hard to express. When they are said to person of similar gender especially in the case of a guy, it is simply raising goosebumps. For a guy to say it to a girl, it is misleading. Others might think you have fallen into the traps of love for that girl. The expression 'something is best left unsaid' is sometimes crappy a sentence. So i must learn to appreciate verbally.
After value-adding, the behavior exhibiting appreciation must be followed after.
I think i have learnt that the world i live in means an exchange of benefits in all aspects.
For a business to be viable, value adding is important. Perhaps the reason that some businesses survive while others do not, boils down to the fact - value-adding. If the products do add value to (or benefit) the consumers, the products can be sold and thus handsome profits can be raked in. For example, one buys a computer because he/she needs it for his/her projects anywhere (need) and laptop provides portability (benefit). The larger the value it adds, the greater the profits will be. In short, value-adding will create a simple consumer's demand for the product and ultimately customer satisfaction.
Well, in the area of relationship, value-adding does exist. When you are in need of help, probably you will turn to the people whom you can trust, e.g. friends, family. So when the trusted fellow that you seek help from provides really good help in one way or another, it does value-add to the situation you are in. In the long run, the relationship can be better maintained and improved by looking out for each other.
But a usual relationship starts because of value-adding, doesn't it? It applies to a boy courting a girl too. When a boy does skirt-chasing, he may spend alot financially, emotionally or even in terms of time. But the interaction with someone he does admire/like, he will still gather the very least - sweet moments that he has with the girl. For the girl, she gains in terms of self-confidence and is showered with perhaps gifts.
Although i do express such that relationships are like business transactions here, i strongly believe that relationship with closed ones (not necessarily the person must be living physically close to you, haha) is built upon beyond value-adding. Other major factors like trust, being sensitive towards others, do count in. One of the greatest products that my friends gave me is their presence. The presence that they gave is more than being there. Hanging around with them is sometimes costly because a meal can easily cost me at least $12, the company they give can be really expensive and priceless. Sincerity coupled with actions, is still the best mode of expressing one's appreciation for the others.
There are times i feel that one really needs to express verbally his/her appreciation for what the closed one has actually done for him/her. But i guess it is really hard in a way to say face-to-face that someone is great for me. I will keep it in my heart and through the non-verbal connection known as telepathy that i hope my closed companions will feel appreciated. Sad to say, it fails most of the time, i guess. Phrases like "i miss you" are hard to express. When they are said to person of similar gender especially in the case of a guy, it is simply raising goosebumps. For a guy to say it to a girl, it is misleading. Others might think you have fallen into the traps of love for that girl. The expression 'something is best left unsaid' is sometimes crappy a sentence. So i must learn to appreciate verbally.
After value-adding, the behavior exhibiting appreciation must be followed after.
I think i need to do value-adding more often to people around me whenever i can, via actions and also telling them they are appreciated.
Start value-adding and appreciating...
sad song, not exactly sad
Title: sad song, not exactly sad
I slept at 11 plus pm and woke up at 3plus in the morning. The night before this was quite similar to this. I was supposed to receive and send project files at 11 plus. But i ended completing none of the tasks at that time.
Anyway, I once told Michelle that i prefer sad songs to happy ones. The reason is simple. The sad songs are able to invoke my memory. Sometimes, i feel that only when one is sad and listening to this kind of music, he/she can recall the past meaningfully. Whenever i listen to these songs, it would be about recalling what i did - be it good or bad. Especially, when i could recall that i had fun moments that i used to enjoy, this has made me feel that i have not lived in this world for nothing. Also, the actual mood can add more meanings to the songs. I just think that in sadness itself, it is actually romantic somehow.
A song that can make one's heart to feel the ache, the eyes to tear, is special and worth noting as it has at least made me realise the significance of the events. It is not a bad thing at all when one can use sad song to reminisce the wonderful past.
It is not exactly listening to sad song = sadness. Sad song can act as a cushion or accompany me through the difficult moments when the tasks are tough and i am alone in it. It does not take me much effort to do so. To tell others my problems, i still need to explain my situation. Oh come on, to explain when i am down, it is energy-sapping. At times, intrapersonal communication works best when i want no one to tell me what to do.
I slept at 11 plus pm and woke up at 3plus in the morning. The night before this was quite similar to this. I was supposed to receive and send project files at 11 plus. But i ended completing none of the tasks at that time.
Anyway, I once told Michelle that i prefer sad songs to happy ones. The reason is simple. The sad songs are able to invoke my memory. Sometimes, i feel that only when one is sad and listening to this kind of music, he/she can recall the past meaningfully. Whenever i listen to these songs, it would be about recalling what i did - be it good or bad. Especially, when i could recall that i had fun moments that i used to enjoy, this has made me feel that i have not lived in this world for nothing. Also, the actual mood can add more meanings to the songs. I just think that in sadness itself, it is actually romantic somehow.
A song that can make one's heart to feel the ache, the eyes to tear, is special and worth noting as it has at least made me realise the significance of the events. It is not a bad thing at all when one can use sad song to reminisce the wonderful past.
It is not exactly listening to sad song = sadness. Sad song can act as a cushion or accompany me through the difficult moments when the tasks are tough and i am alone in it. It does not take me much effort to do so. To tell others my problems, i still need to explain my situation. Oh come on, to explain when i am down, it is energy-sapping. At times, intrapersonal communication works best when i want no one to tell me what to do.
Monday, November 5, 2007
the first met and watched
Title: the first met and watched
Annual visiting was done. I went to visit my great grandmother on saturday, 3 November. This time round and first time, i was without any direct relatives. Dad and i reached there some 15 minutes past 4pm. The birthday celebration was over and the crowd had gone home.
Well, I met Ping Chie's mother there. Well, i even accompanied Irene, great grandmother's attentive and cheerful maid to lottery station. Oh my.. haha. Since young, i did not like the idea of gambling. But that day, i was in the queue for Irene. In the end, she wanted me to buy for her since i was already in the queue. Luckily, i told her i never bought any lottery before and i was asked to wait for her instead. haha.
Chang Qing and Shu Yun. They are lovable. I believe that kids can really make one's day, simply they are a joy to be with. If a kid ever requests you to play with him/her, play like them. Although at times you would be wondering why you are doing it, the smile that the little ones give out certainly removes any uncomfort in you. I had to roll off the sofa while playing 'fighting' with Chang Qing. We had no toy swords so we made do with the flag similar to the ones used in soccer. Snapping pictures was fun too. Chang Qing really knew how to pose in front of a camera. There was a part where we were taking a photo using a frame that had candle in the background, that made Shu Yun and Chang Qing laughed. No matter how i took the photo with the 3 of us in the picture, i was always getting 'burnt' by the candle in the picture. haha. That eventually made Shu Yun liking that particular picture frame more as she used it to 'burn' me by taking more pictures with the flame on me.
The stay at Great Grandmother's place was short as it was approaching 6.30pm. I had to run off to meet Gerry at Orchard.
I was there standing for more than 90 minutes. Also, i was in a place where i should never be. For 90 mintues, i was standing and focused. The standing had taken a toll on me as i could feel the pressure on my knees. The emotions were running high while i did routine checks on my emotions. Gerry somehow blended into the crowd as he was one true member of them. Then came my favourite move in the match when subsitute Saha did a defence-splitting pass to the on-coming Evra who expertly was on-side, in the penalty area. Then within a few steps, he put in a low cross to the centre of the box to Ronaldo who was on target for Manchester United to take the lead. I was happy that instance but i did not show it and remained cool. The crowd there was silenced. Eventually, the match ended in a draw with a last minute, surprising equaliser that provoked the crowd to burst into cheers. At the end of it, i was still Manchester United fan, although i was in Arsenal Singapore fan's club for more than 2 hours. I am an unconverted, United fan.
Annual visiting was done. I went to visit my great grandmother on saturday, 3 November. This time round and first time, i was without any direct relatives. Dad and i reached there some 15 minutes past 4pm. The birthday celebration was over and the crowd had gone home.
Well, I met Ping Chie's mother there. Well, i even accompanied Irene, great grandmother's attentive and cheerful maid to lottery station. Oh my.. haha. Since young, i did not like the idea of gambling. But that day, i was in the queue for Irene. In the end, she wanted me to buy for her since i was already in the queue. Luckily, i told her i never bought any lottery before and i was asked to wait for her instead. haha.
Chang Qing and Shu Yun. They are lovable. I believe that kids can really make one's day, simply they are a joy to be with. If a kid ever requests you to play with him/her, play like them. Although at times you would be wondering why you are doing it, the smile that the little ones give out certainly removes any uncomfort in you. I had to roll off the sofa while playing 'fighting' with Chang Qing. We had no toy swords so we made do with the flag similar to the ones used in soccer. Snapping pictures was fun too. Chang Qing really knew how to pose in front of a camera. There was a part where we were taking a photo using a frame that had candle in the background, that made Shu Yun and Chang Qing laughed. No matter how i took the photo with the 3 of us in the picture, i was always getting 'burnt' by the candle in the picture. haha. That eventually made Shu Yun liking that particular picture frame more as she used it to 'burn' me by taking more pictures with the flame on me.
The stay at Great Grandmother's place was short as it was approaching 6.30pm. I had to run off to meet Gerry at Orchard.
I was there standing for more than 90 minutes. Also, i was in a place where i should never be. For 90 mintues, i was standing and focused. The standing had taken a toll on me as i could feel the pressure on my knees. The emotions were running high while i did routine checks on my emotions. Gerry somehow blended into the crowd as he was one true member of them. Then came my favourite move in the match when subsitute Saha did a defence-splitting pass to the on-coming Evra who expertly was on-side, in the penalty area. Then within a few steps, he put in a low cross to the centre of the box to Ronaldo who was on target for Manchester United to take the lead. I was happy that instance but i did not show it and remained cool. The crowd there was silenced. Eventually, the match ended in a draw with a last minute, surprising equaliser that provoked the crowd to burst into cheers. At the end of it, i was still Manchester United fan, although i was in Arsenal Singapore fan's club for more than 2 hours. I am an unconverted, United fan.
Photos: first met and watched
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