Title: Gained
29 april 2007. the night i had gained alot in terms of age. I have been to Israel, Palestine, United States and China. All in one night, can you believe it? ( I doubt so).
Common sense would surely beat that question to a 'no'. I had a conversation with Uncle Thomas on topics revolving business. I had approached him with the aim of completing my most pressing matter- project. Originally i had consulted on the project i may be doing. Then we went on to talk about how business should work and of course, i tried learning from him and his views. Maybe i should have more of such session with experienced business men. Like what a business man told me, "there are two ways you can gain experience: one is you experience the things yourself and along the way you learn things the hard way. Second would be that you gain experience from others' experiences". Normally the second way is a faster way to gain experience. This was when my questions were answered. I think i just need to keep asking and i shall find the ultimate answer that i want. i guess i'll go on knocking doors of others and i shall be heard and thus answered.
But tonight was also my grandfather's birthday. This celebration was different as i did not play with my younger cousin which i often would do when we meet.
I, hereby wish my grandfather a happy birthday and a great year ahead for him
Happy Birthday, Ah Gong!
Although he may not get the message from here, cousins who are viewing this, if you could, do some kind work like any helpful soul would - spread the message to him.
Then in the afternoon, i was imitating him like to some of my cousins - Tammie and Aaron - and my brother, Kwan Boon, :“ 不是阿公要讲你， 你们也自动一点。 啊呀，讲了你们也是听不进去。 不要讲了。”
P.S.: For this part, do not let Ah Gong know. Thanks for your cooperation.
Sunday, April 29, 2007
Saturday, April 28, 2007
Saturday's
Title: Saturday's
I woke up at 7.30am in the morning. That's early, considered by any "ABC" or "blah" standard. Had thought that the day would start off meaningfully with me completing tutorials. I guess not even one was done. Instead at around 8.30am, i slept.
By the time i woke up (10am), i was preparing to leave for my tuition lesson. Wasted would be a suitable word befitting my situation. I guess i would just need to be efficient. After tuition, i met Ann, Guan Zhu and Michelle for badminton session.
Just before the 2pm session, i was caught in a situation. The very reactive but 'unwanted' juice was at work. Its full name was gastric juice. It held me back from playing and in the end, i had to go away for some quick bites.
I have not been playing badminton for some time. Rust had rubbed some of its effects on me. Anyway, even if i had regular plays, i guess my level of playing would still be at the rock-bottom and the 'rusty' feeling i might have only added little side-effects to my unnatural play.
Although my skills are not up to standards, my personal secrets against the threesome are revealed below:
Badminton Tactic: When tag teamed with Ann, allow her to play against Guan Zhu as she would (99% of the time) be able to hit back on his service and beat him to his game on a probability of 2/3. That could be a curse that Guan Zhu needs to break. To beat Michelle in the game, simply hit shuttlecock high over her but beware, Michelle might retaliate with some "sleepy" magic on you. This is due to she would be sleepy somehow during game and if you ever caught a glimpse of that, you might be hit on the spell. haha. Then for Ann, it was simple than any other tactics mentioned above. Create a joke or simply make her break out into laughters, she would surrender the game to you readily.
To be politically correct, it was a fun game. haha. I don't mean to say that it was really bad. It was a indeed a fun one truly.
At night, had seafood dinner. A pity that Ann wasn't able to make it and Guan Zhu was left out of the super-cheap feast because of his illness which he always claimed the source of that was me. Just can't escape from clutches of monster "illness", somehow although i have recovered fully. Conviction was needed from the seafood to Michelle as she claimed that the food there was not good. Anyway, at the end, she commented the food was not spicy enough. I thought her taste bud was 'spoilt' from young by extreme spicy food. After dinner, we had chatted like there was no tomorrow.
Guan Zhu asked me to join some youth organisation. Well, i don't have anything on in school except classes. It seems a good cause to join as there are other activities. I would like to be part of some event organising activity. Shall see how it goes.
I woke up at 7.30am in the morning. That's early, considered by any "ABC" or "blah" standard. Had thought that the day would start off meaningfully with me completing tutorials. I guess not even one was done. Instead at around 8.30am, i slept.
By the time i woke up (10am), i was preparing to leave for my tuition lesson. Wasted would be a suitable word befitting my situation. I guess i would just need to be efficient. After tuition, i met Ann, Guan Zhu and Michelle for badminton session.
Just before the 2pm session, i was caught in a situation. The very reactive but 'unwanted' juice was at work. Its full name was gastric juice. It held me back from playing and in the end, i had to go away for some quick bites.
I have not been playing badminton for some time. Rust had rubbed some of its effects on me. Anyway, even if i had regular plays, i guess my level of playing would still be at the rock-bottom and the 'rusty' feeling i might have only added little side-effects to my unnatural play.
Although my skills are not up to standards, my personal secrets against the threesome are revealed below:
Badminton Tactic: When tag teamed with Ann, allow her to play against Guan Zhu as she would (99% of the time) be able to hit back on his service and beat him to his game on a probability of 2/3. That could be a curse that Guan Zhu needs to break. To beat Michelle in the game, simply hit shuttlecock high over her but beware, Michelle might retaliate with some "sleepy" magic on you. This is due to she would be sleepy somehow during game and if you ever caught a glimpse of that, you might be hit on the spell. haha. Then for Ann, it was simple than any other tactics mentioned above. Create a joke or simply make her break out into laughters, she would surrender the game to you readily.
To be politically correct, it was a fun game. haha. I don't mean to say that it was really bad. It was a indeed a fun one truly.
At night, had seafood dinner. A pity that Ann wasn't able to make it and Guan Zhu was left out of the super-cheap feast because of his illness which he always claimed the source of that was me. Just can't escape from clutches of monster "illness", somehow although i have recovered fully. Conviction was needed from the seafood to Michelle as she claimed that the food there was not good. Anyway, at the end, she commented the food was not spicy enough. I thought her taste bud was 'spoilt' from young by extreme spicy food. After dinner, we had chatted like there was no tomorrow.
Guan Zhu asked me to join some youth organisation. Well, i don't have anything on in school except classes. It seems a good cause to join as there are other activities. I would like to be part of some event organising activity. Shall see how it goes.
Friday, April 27, 2007
Same Old Brand New "eyes"
Title: Same Old Brand New "eyes"
through a new pair of "eyes", i have seen the world like usual. Well this pair of "eyes" makes up of 2 black supporting flat rods, with a front view of pure white color and rectangular shape. Yeah, it is my new spec. But with this pair of new "eyes", the feeling differs. it gives off freshness and new level comfort. That's the differentiation it has for now. However, i have come to understand that the freshness may die out after some time. This is applied well in the concept of economic and business. First a relative new business of unprecedented idea will first experience a stage where there is no growth, then entering the second stage - the growth stage. This is when there is exponential growth and increase in market shares. The third stage is when the market matures and so everything cools down. The last stage - shake-out - will see business leaving the market. That's as good as expressing the freshness dying out. Comfort cherished now will be got used to and taken for granted.
That's human, i guess. Have i always been like that? Have you too? What is it that can really maintain its competitive advantage which nobody can ever leave it out? Is it an object of sentimental values or tangible?
To add to what i have in mind now, it is the complication that bothers me. Motivation needed now.
through a new pair of "eyes", i have seen the world like usual. Well this pair of "eyes" makes up of 2 black supporting flat rods, with a front view of pure white color and rectangular shape. Yeah, it is my new spec. But with this pair of new "eyes", the feeling differs. it gives off freshness and new level comfort. That's the differentiation it has for now. However, i have come to understand that the freshness may die out after some time. This is applied well in the concept of economic and business. First a relative new business of unprecedented idea will first experience a stage where there is no growth, then entering the second stage - the growth stage. This is when there is exponential growth and increase in market shares. The third stage is when the market matures and so everything cools down. The last stage - shake-out - will see business leaving the market. That's as good as expressing the freshness dying out. Comfort cherished now will be got used to and taken for granted.
That's human, i guess. Have i always been like that? Have you too? What is it that can really maintain its competitive advantage which nobody can ever leave it out? Is it an object of sentimental values or tangible?
To add to what i have in mind now, it is the complication that bothers me. Motivation needed now.
Sunday, April 22, 2007
Story of fantasy - Sire "G"
Title: Story of Fantansy - Sire "G"
A story based on my own fantasy is created. If you have any suggestions, do give me some. Do enjoy:
long ago, a tale was told of a old but mighty Lord - Sire "G" owned the universe. but his favourite planet was actually the blue-green Earth. the beautiful corals that can be found in the Ocean belonging to the Australia, the Mount Fuji that represents the Japanese land the Earth has it all. It was more than that the old spirit wanted. Sire "G" was an jealous ghost, that was shining like a dark blue flame. Wrapped around it was a just a piece of black cloth. He had a pair white gloves on to represent his hands. Everything about the Sire "G" was great but one attribute of him failed him big time. It was his height. He stood at only, 1. .... 68 metres. That's all. It was a pathetic height that he always complained that was not befitting the status of a evil lord he would say. His usual grouch was "this is so unfair.. The usual cartoon movie i saw was that i could see the King of the Dark empire was of at least some 1.8m and above."
He disliked the peace the humans enjoyed. So there were times, he created the wars and plenty of them just to inject some conflicts. to him, the sufferings were just nothing more than movies. he had a magic mirror. the mirror was made of crystal, ran from 700m in length and 500m in width, suspending in the air at the centre of the black and eriee cave that Sire "G" hibernated in. As the mirror was so big, he would need at least 400m away from it to watch it. So he would sit on his throne locating at an elevated height off the ground - approximately 100m high. He would then settle down on the throne and watch it at 45 degrees north away from the direction of his normal vision field.
Whenever he felt like watching a show or 2, he would snap and "boo", the crystal clear object would flash clear resolution of images on earth. He also had a habit of watching family argument. What's more, a couple of years back, the family drama was a hit. But not even an award winning and world acclaimed actor could win his heart. so with this in mind, he wanted to watch some REAL shows for himself.
"Pass the ball to me," shouted Jai. There it screened was a neighbourhood street soccer court. Like the usual soccer court, its four sides were bounded by fences with the stand or seats on one of the side. As Jai was playing with his friends in an intense match, there was no one at all at the stand. There it represented an opportunity to the Lord.
At the back of his head, he vividly remembered what this boy had actually done in the past years on Earth. But just to be sure that the deeds that the boy had committed, he summoned another spirit - the Ace Steal. With quick double snaps and a few words of chant, the spirit appeared right before him and on his knees, ready to receive the order.
Ace Steal was a spirit who knew the darkest art of stealing as its name suggested. In contrast, he was different from the Sire "G". He was handsome. He had a pair of crystal blue eyes, celebrity look and a figure that many would want. With fringes flowing down from the centre of his head towards his right face, he had his rest of hair neatly tied into a ponytail. He was gigantic. Standing at 2.5metres, he was sometimes scolded for nothing at times. The reason simply was Sire "G" would scream "your height is an eye sore to me while a candy eye to the girls that i like!"
So Ace Steal took out a manuel that looked like the chinese kungfu secret manuel. He read out:
"Jai, 14 is an unifilial son."
"He had frequent arguments with his mum, Joan. The latest one being and dated just an hour ago."
"I had punished him by stealing his favourite Jam shoes ( a popular sports brand) during the last Christmas which is only one week ago."
"He never mended his ways and continued blaming his mum for the loss of his possesion."
At once, Sire "G" commented, "Bad son, bad indeed." " I hereby decree you, the Ace Steal to steal the possesions including the PSP, K8001 and hundred bucks of that boy"
By now, Ace Steal knew what to do. He followed the order and vanished into the air. He appeared at the court. Although Ace Steal was BIG, he used his magic power to make himself invisible. Then in a while, when everyone was focused on the ball, he stole and went off.
After the soccer game, Jai was upset that he lost his belongings. This time around, the value of his belongings sums up to more than a thousand dollar. It was like his life was shattered. He got home and told his mum about the matter.
The mum did not nag at him nor did she scold him like she would do usually. Instead, she told him that to go for some praying as she thought that he was down in his luck. This time, Jai heeded advice whereas other times, he would reject her up right. Jai started to feel if he was right to have arguments with mum and labelled her advice as "wrong". From then on, both of them patched up and things went smooth for Jai.
Sire "G" left them alone as he thought Jai would leave home. The end-result sufferings that he wanted was foiled. He accidentally did a good deed again.
A story based on my own fantasy is created. If you have any suggestions, do give me some. Do enjoy:
long ago, a tale was told of a old but mighty Lord - Sire "G" owned the universe. but his favourite planet was actually the blue-green Earth. the beautiful corals that can be found in the Ocean belonging to the Australia, the Mount Fuji that represents the Japanese land the Earth has it all. It was more than that the old spirit wanted. Sire "G" was an jealous ghost, that was shining like a dark blue flame. Wrapped around it was a just a piece of black cloth. He had a pair white gloves on to represent his hands. Everything about the Sire "G" was great but one attribute of him failed him big time. It was his height. He stood at only, 1. .... 68 metres. That's all. It was a pathetic height that he always complained that was not befitting the status of a evil lord he would say. His usual grouch was "this is so unfair.. The usual cartoon movie i saw was that i could see the King of the Dark empire was of at least some 1.8m and above."
He disliked the peace the humans enjoyed. So there were times, he created the wars and plenty of them just to inject some conflicts. to him, the sufferings were just nothing more than movies. he had a magic mirror. the mirror was made of crystal, ran from 700m in length and 500m in width, suspending in the air at the centre of the black and eriee cave that Sire "G" hibernated in. As the mirror was so big, he would need at least 400m away from it to watch it. So he would sit on his throne locating at an elevated height off the ground - approximately 100m high. He would then settle down on the throne and watch it at 45 degrees north away from the direction of his normal vision field.
Whenever he felt like watching a show or 2, he would snap and "boo", the crystal clear object would flash clear resolution of images on earth. He also had a habit of watching family argument. What's more, a couple of years back, the family drama was a hit. But not even an award winning and world acclaimed actor could win his heart. so with this in mind, he wanted to watch some REAL shows for himself.
"Pass the ball to me," shouted Jai. There it screened was a neighbourhood street soccer court. Like the usual soccer court, its four sides were bounded by fences with the stand or seats on one of the side. As Jai was playing with his friends in an intense match, there was no one at all at the stand. There it represented an opportunity to the Lord.
At the back of his head, he vividly remembered what this boy had actually done in the past years on Earth. But just to be sure that the deeds that the boy had committed, he summoned another spirit - the Ace Steal. With quick double snaps and a few words of chant, the spirit appeared right before him and on his knees, ready to receive the order.
Ace Steal was a spirit who knew the darkest art of stealing as its name suggested. In contrast, he was different from the Sire "G". He was handsome. He had a pair of crystal blue eyes, celebrity look and a figure that many would want. With fringes flowing down from the centre of his head towards his right face, he had his rest of hair neatly tied into a ponytail. He was gigantic. Standing at 2.5metres, he was sometimes scolded for nothing at times. The reason simply was Sire "G" would scream "your height is an eye sore to me while a candy eye to the girls that i like!"
So Ace Steal took out a manuel that looked like the chinese kungfu secret manuel. He read out:
"Jai, 14 is an unifilial son."
"He had frequent arguments with his mum, Joan. The latest one being and dated just an hour ago."
"I had punished him by stealing his favourite Jam shoes ( a popular sports brand) during the last Christmas which is only one week ago."
"He never mended his ways and continued blaming his mum for the loss of his possesion."
At once, Sire "G" commented, "Bad son, bad indeed." " I hereby decree you, the Ace Steal to steal the possesions including the PSP, K8001 and hundred bucks of that boy"
By now, Ace Steal knew what to do. He followed the order and vanished into the air. He appeared at the court. Although Ace Steal was BIG, he used his magic power to make himself invisible. Then in a while, when everyone was focused on the ball, he stole and went off.
After the soccer game, Jai was upset that he lost his belongings. This time around, the value of his belongings sums up to more than a thousand dollar. It was like his life was shattered. He got home and told his mum about the matter.
The mum did not nag at him nor did she scold him like she would do usually. Instead, she told him that to go for some praying as she thought that he was down in his luck. This time, Jai heeded advice whereas other times, he would reject her up right. Jai started to feel if he was right to have arguments with mum and labelled her advice as "wrong". From then on, both of them patched up and things went smooth for Jai.
Sire "G" left them alone as he thought Jai would leave home. The end-result sufferings that he wanted was foiled. He accidentally did a good deed again.
Saturday, April 21, 2007
Reborn
Title:Reborn
Hereby the writer himself thinks that the blog has changed for the better. the previous self of the blog just never made the grade (though it is often said that, "Never Judge a Book Based on its Cover"). Perhaps the writer feels that the stronger phrase that is more in line with the world of today would be, "First Impression Counts". Even a hideous creature who is extremely kind-hearted, friendly would need millions of days on earth to convince any object - be it a homosapien, pet dog or cat or just a plant - that it is of good nature.
The appearance of the person would somehow, already decide the personality and character of an individual. That is quite true to most of the cases. For the writer thinks that the way one dresses and conducts would be the expression of the thinking of that particular individual. But this is true partly as the person who dresses and talks like a rapper, might just want to associate himself with a group of friends that he enjoys company in most. Thus he could gain acceptance from his beings. Therefore, the appearance in this case only signifies his identity with his friends. But the real him is not found and hence, cannot be judged solely on the 'skin' that he is wearing. As wearing like a punk may seem like a 'not serious' and playful person to others (writer's opinion), the person may actually be a decisive leader when it comes to project work. This is just an exception which it is thought that it can happen to the minority.
So how would one know the inner self of another by not simply judging the 'skin' of that another? A tricky question indeed. It is meant for food for thoughts. No conclusion for now as the writer continues thinking and experiencing life.
Thank you is the gift to both Ann and Guan Zhu from the writer. Appreciated the effort and "money" ( remember "Time is Money") put in the blog design. The blog has really 'reborn'". "Thank you so much."
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
ambition in nowhere
Title: ambition in nowhere
Placing my cheek on a paritally cupped left hand together with tiring eyes fixed on the computer signalled that i was thinking hard what to write for my current post. i have gone to look at fellow friends' blogs in an attempt to give myself some inspiration to write.
then, i thought of my ambition in life all of a sudden. since young, i have never thought of becoming a businessman or anything related to business. i thought i would be a scientist or inventor since science and maths have always been my favourite. What's more, i have a grandmother who formally owned a chinese 'bao' factory which was a family business so i thought i should change line and do nothing related to business. unfortunately, a couple of years ago (which is 2005, exactly 2 years back), i have erased that ambition from my list of missions.
That few hours of thinking had me picked up Business option in tertiary insititution. the today me is filled with passions over business.
i have got plenty of questions in my head:
- how am i going to carry out a business with limited or no capital?
- how am i turn really wealthy and play the game of business to my advantage?
- am i going to reach my impossible goals in the years to come?
I have suddenly liked to read business sections, Business Times and my favourite orange colored paper - Financial Times.
Then i asked myself:
- how do i invest in the funds mentioned in the papers?
- how do i invest in the stock markets?
- how do i apply my knowledge?
All of these i am curious to know but how do i go about to learn and acquire them as knowledge in me, that's an obstacle. i want to really apply the business skills i have learnt briefly.
the feeling in me written down in words:
"now i feel passions of achieving my goals in my youth years, but will it ever become a reality?
i am afraid of the terrifying truth that i cannot make it happen. faith i have may die out as stamina would to a runner in a race. restored confidence may only buy time but not the sought after results. a person of years of been-through shall enlighten yours truly. but will the person of significance really appear?"
That's how i felt i have spent time the last 8 years of my life - confident but not fully in my ability.
Placing my cheek on a paritally cupped left hand together with tiring eyes fixed on the computer signalled that i was thinking hard what to write for my current post. i have gone to look at fellow friends' blogs in an attempt to give myself some inspiration to write.
then, i thought of my ambition in life all of a sudden. since young, i have never thought of becoming a businessman or anything related to business. i thought i would be a scientist or inventor since science and maths have always been my favourite. What's more, i have a grandmother who formally owned a chinese 'bao' factory which was a family business so i thought i should change line and do nothing related to business. unfortunately, a couple of years ago (which is 2005, exactly 2 years back), i have erased that ambition from my list of missions.
That few hours of thinking had me picked up Business option in tertiary insititution. the today me is filled with passions over business.
i have got plenty of questions in my head:
- how am i going to carry out a business with limited or no capital?
- how am i turn really wealthy and play the game of business to my advantage?
- am i going to reach my impossible goals in the years to come?
I have suddenly liked to read business sections, Business Times and my favourite orange colored paper - Financial Times.
Then i asked myself:
- how do i invest in the funds mentioned in the papers?
- how do i invest in the stock markets?
- how do i apply my knowledge?
All of these i am curious to know but how do i go about to learn and acquire them as knowledge in me, that's an obstacle. i want to really apply the business skills i have learnt briefly.
the feeling in me written down in words:
"now i feel passions of achieving my goals in my youth years, but will it ever become a reality?
i am afraid of the terrifying truth that i cannot make it happen. faith i have may die out as stamina would to a runner in a race. restored confidence may only buy time but not the sought after results. a person of years of been-through shall enlighten yours truly. but will the person of significance really appear?"
That's how i felt i have spent time the last 8 years of my life - confident but not fully in my ability.
Sunday, April 15, 2007
prediction: agree?
Title: prediction: agree?
Since guan zhu had given some prediction on the UEFA Champions League, i am tempted to give some 2 cents' worth prediction.
I think that Man U can win treble. But it will be all be handed over by Chelsea partly. Come May, i think we will see that Man U will face Chelsea at Stamford Bridge for the Premiership Title, then Cardiff Stadium for FA Cup and lastly at Athens for Champions League title.
So it will be three crucial games for Man U. So how do they go about to win them all? Easiest will be to win all the games and be hailed the Champions. But to place this kind of prediction in the world of harsh realities, it will be altogether hard to believe.
My prediction is A LOSS/DRAW at Stamford Bridge and the rest would be a Man U wins.
Firstly, why Man U to win Premiership? It will be a final match to decide the owner of the Premiership. Man U are in better form than Chelsea although there have been mounting injuries. A bit of champions' luck should see Man U winning the title.
Then, against Chelsea at FA Cup, Chelsea may just need to surrender the Cup since they have won the Carling Cup.
Lastly, the Champions League, i guess it is just Man U's year to win it.
Against AC Milan in semi-final, they will need speedy players to run the show against the old, slow Italian, Red Devils. But it is also a sort of revenge as a season before last, Man U went out because of AC Milan with two 1-nil wins at San Siro and Old Trafford.
More importantly, it is that i have noticed that the season right after World Cup will normally see Man U on form and winning major title(s). For example, after 98' World Cup, Man U won the treble. Man U won the 2003 Premiership after the 2002 World Cup. Moreover, looking back at Man U's treble year, the then No. 7 shirt holder was blamed by England fans after the World Cup. Right now it is the same with the current No. 7 shirt holder. Although there are injuries, Man U won the 1999 Champions League without full strength squad, if i don't remember wrongly.
Above mentioned are just prediction and may not be true.
Since guan zhu had given some prediction on the UEFA Champions League, i am tempted to give some 2 cents' worth prediction.
I think that Man U can win treble. But it will be all be handed over by Chelsea partly. Come May, i think we will see that Man U will face Chelsea at Stamford Bridge for the Premiership Title, then Cardiff Stadium for FA Cup and lastly at Athens for Champions League title.
So it will be three crucial games for Man U. So how do they go about to win them all? Easiest will be to win all the games and be hailed the Champions. But to place this kind of prediction in the world of harsh realities, it will be altogether hard to believe.
My prediction is A LOSS/DRAW at Stamford Bridge and the rest would be a Man U wins.
Firstly, why Man U to win Premiership? It will be a final match to decide the owner of the Premiership. Man U are in better form than Chelsea although there have been mounting injuries. A bit of champions' luck should see Man U winning the title.
Then, against Chelsea at FA Cup, Chelsea may just need to surrender the Cup since they have won the Carling Cup.
Lastly, the Champions League, i guess it is just Man U's year to win it.
Against AC Milan in semi-final, they will need speedy players to run the show against the old, slow Italian, Red Devils. But it is also a sort of revenge as a season before last, Man U went out because of AC Milan with two 1-nil wins at San Siro and Old Trafford.
More importantly, it is that i have noticed that the season right after World Cup will normally see Man U on form and winning major title(s). For example, after 98' World Cup, Man U won the treble. Man U won the 2003 Premiership after the 2002 World Cup. Moreover, looking back at Man U's treble year, the then No. 7 shirt holder was blamed by England fans after the World Cup. Right now it is the same with the current No. 7 shirt holder. Although there are injuries, Man U won the 1999 Champions League without full strength squad, if i don't remember wrongly.
Above mentioned are just prediction and may not be true.
Thursday, April 12, 2007
the night before last
Title: the night before last
If it was tomorrow around this time, i would have reached the end of my attachment. The end of one is beginning of another - school term. I was asked by my colleague if i would miss working there. But as usual, it is hard for me to miss a place. It seems to be in me since i was young. The days when i left my former schools, i did not feel sad nor too happy. All was neutral.
What should i be feeling? I feel that i just went through another process of life and let it go when need be but without regretting it. Perhaps the subject that i am facing now is work, that's why all the more i felt the emptiness in me.
The benefit of this neutral feel is that i won't experience sadness.
Anyway, on top of that, i have yet to complete a work task. I guess i have to rush through it and have not been in the best of health the past days or even weeks! I have been trapped in the vicious cycle of fever, cough and flu for 2plus weeks. The worse part is I have to endure it one by one. Say i have fever today, then tomorrow it will be coupled with coughings then flu. Luckily i am not experiencing any flu for now. That's good news. Hope that i have already started eliminating illnesses one by one and wish i can recover in time for school term. I guess i need to sleep more to get healthier.
If it was tomorrow around this time, i would have reached the end of my attachment. The end of one is beginning of another - school term. I was asked by my colleague if i would miss working there. But as usual, it is hard for me to miss a place. It seems to be in me since i was young. The days when i left my former schools, i did not feel sad nor too happy. All was neutral.
What should i be feeling? I feel that i just went through another process of life and let it go when need be but without regretting it. Perhaps the subject that i am facing now is work, that's why all the more i felt the emptiness in me.
The benefit of this neutral feel is that i won't experience sadness.
Anyway, on top of that, i have yet to complete a work task. I guess i have to rush through it and have not been in the best of health the past days or even weeks! I have been trapped in the vicious cycle of fever, cough and flu for 2plus weeks. The worse part is I have to endure it one by one. Say i have fever today, then tomorrow it will be coupled with coughings then flu. Luckily i am not experiencing any flu for now. That's good news. Hope that i have already started eliminating illnesses one by one and wish i can recover in time for school term. I guess i need to sleep more to get healthier.
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
impressed
Title: impressed
The moment they stepped in, the laughters and activeness broke the partial silence that once filled the rectangular container accompanied with the occupied orange seats. There they were in the number of 5 and were of differing heights and ages. Just when i thought i had no Newpaper to accompany me, they instantly became a 'live' show right before me.
Bending her knees and looking at her target with total focus, she released herself upwards, like a spring. Knowing that jumping alone was not enough, she raised her right hand trying to hit the target - one of the handles hanging at the centre of the cabin. No matter how much effort she put in, she failed still. But she wasn't defeated, she found it more challenging to reach it. What's more, she was jolted by her elder brother who showed off, as he reached the handle effortlessly.
In her effort to deflate her brothers' arrogance, she jumped and tried slapping her brother's hand off the handle. After that, she continued working towards that simple goal. The first time she released herself into the air ended in an unsuccessful attempt. Immediately after the first try, she jumped and jumped again.
But she found herself another obstacle when it was the next stop. A lady came in and stood in front of her (with her back facing the little girl). She was restrained in certain way so she stopped her goal-searching process. But i was surpried she still continued with her wilful behaviour. This time round, she did it by not knocking into the lady although the lady did glance back slightly.
Like all kids do, she came up with an innovative way. With some quick-wits, she grabbed the stainless steel pole next to her. She raised her right leg and then placed the top of her foot on the pole and her inner knee against the pole. The right limb became her supporting tool as she used her left leg to push hard against the hard ground and she was already cuddling the pole with her hands on it like a koala bear around the tree. She slid down the first time. Nonetheless, she tried a few more times and with abit of climbing. She then raised her right hand towards the closest handle when she knew the time was right.
That was when she emerged as a small little victor for which a target she had set for herself. Once she grabbed the handle, she was so delighted that she shouted for her brothers, sister and mother, wanting to see her accomplishment. I think i was impressed. She won for herself.
She has shown she could do it with her sheer determination and brawn. Her actions caught me thinking hard about the obstacles in life and thus inspired me.
The moment they stepped in, the laughters and activeness broke the partial silence that once filled the rectangular container accompanied with the occupied orange seats. There they were in the number of 5 and were of differing heights and ages. Just when i thought i had no Newpaper to accompany me, they instantly became a 'live' show right before me.
Bending her knees and looking at her target with total focus, she released herself upwards, like a spring. Knowing that jumping alone was not enough, she raised her right hand trying to hit the target - one of the handles hanging at the centre of the cabin. No matter how much effort she put in, she failed still. But she wasn't defeated, she found it more challenging to reach it. What's more, she was jolted by her elder brother who showed off, as he reached the handle effortlessly.
In her effort to deflate her brothers' arrogance, she jumped and tried slapping her brother's hand off the handle. After that, she continued working towards that simple goal. The first time she released herself into the air ended in an unsuccessful attempt. Immediately after the first try, she jumped and jumped again.
But she found herself another obstacle when it was the next stop. A lady came in and stood in front of her (with her back facing the little girl). She was restrained in certain way so she stopped her goal-searching process. But i was surpried she still continued with her wilful behaviour. This time round, she did it by not knocking into the lady although the lady did glance back slightly.
Like all kids do, she came up with an innovative way. With some quick-wits, she grabbed the stainless steel pole next to her. She raised her right leg and then placed the top of her foot on the pole and her inner knee against the pole. The right limb became her supporting tool as she used her left leg to push hard against the hard ground and she was already cuddling the pole with her hands on it like a koala bear around the tree. She slid down the first time. Nonetheless, she tried a few more times and with abit of climbing. She then raised her right hand towards the closest handle when she knew the time was right.
That was when she emerged as a small little victor for which a target she had set for herself. Once she grabbed the handle, she was so delighted that she shouted for her brothers, sister and mother, wanting to see her accomplishment. I think i was impressed. She won for herself.
She has shown she could do it with her sheer determination and brawn. Her actions caught me thinking hard about the obstacles in life and thus inspired me.
Monday, April 9, 2007
as GOOD as last day
Title: as GOOD as last day
Today started off abit moody. Repercussions from my work had hit me totally. Even on the train, i did not sleep at all which i normally would when i am on my way to work. The slightest thought of pressing work had kept my mood down. Just as i am writing now, i felt that the mood was right. haha. Why? Because today is monday; monday's BLUES.
Like always, I have always this tendency of giving myself stress when things are tight, which can be said to be self-induced stress. Sometimes i just felt that without stress, i would think that i am wasting my time and being unproductive. But when i am stressed or look stressed, it is kind of depressing. That's the irony of life. Sometimes, my work friends would even say i have a 'serious' face or comment that i get excited in getting things quickly.
Anyway, my attachment is ending soon. Although today i ended late, i was told that i could go off early or report to work later tomorrow. To me, i prefer the former to the latter. haha. I like to suffer then enjoy. Ya, so what my attachment is ending on friday? This is because i am seeing my supervisor for the last time today as she is away all the way till i leave the work officially.
When i was seeing her marking the student evaluation form from behind, i thought i was failing because there were 5 criteria in the evaluation. Then all of them are scaling from 1 being the failing grade to 5 being the excellent grade. To pass my attachment, i would only need to get 3 points for each criteria. If for any criteria i am given less than 3, i would have failed the attachment. So i was looking at her marking, then i did not notice which side the of the marks were towards the failing grades ( 1 and 2 points). For the first criteria, i was given a grade scaling towards the left. I thought it was a bad omen. Then you would have known, i was up and tight, scared that i would fail. So i did not look anymore and walk away to give my supervisor some peace to evaluate me properly.
Luckily (as usual like most of the drama shows end) i passed. Those scaling away from the centre were either very good or excellent. haha.
Today started off abit moody. Repercussions from my work had hit me totally. Even on the train, i did not sleep at all which i normally would when i am on my way to work. The slightest thought of pressing work had kept my mood down. Just as i am writing now, i felt that the mood was right. haha. Why? Because today is monday; monday's BLUES.
Like always, I have always this tendency of giving myself stress when things are tight, which can be said to be self-induced stress. Sometimes i just felt that without stress, i would think that i am wasting my time and being unproductive. But when i am stressed or look stressed, it is kind of depressing. That's the irony of life. Sometimes, my work friends would even say i have a 'serious' face or comment that i get excited in getting things quickly.
Anyway, my attachment is ending soon. Although today i ended late, i was told that i could go off early or report to work later tomorrow. To me, i prefer the former to the latter. haha. I like to suffer then enjoy. Ya, so what my attachment is ending on friday? This is because i am seeing my supervisor for the last time today as she is away all the way till i leave the work officially.
When i was seeing her marking the student evaluation form from behind, i thought i was failing because there were 5 criteria in the evaluation. Then all of them are scaling from 1 being the failing grade to 5 being the excellent grade. To pass my attachment, i would only need to get 3 points for each criteria. If for any criteria i am given less than 3, i would have failed the attachment. So i was looking at her marking, then i did not notice which side the of the marks were towards the failing grades ( 1 and 2 points). For the first criteria, i was given a grade scaling towards the left. I thought it was a bad omen. Then you would have known, i was up and tight, scared that i would fail. So i did not look anymore and walk away to give my supervisor some peace to evaluate me properly.
Luckily (as usual like most of the drama shows end) i passed. Those scaling away from the centre were either very good or excellent. haha.
Sunday, April 8, 2007
sunday church
Title: sunday church
I thought that i would not have any activity. But out of nowhere, ann actually asked us to go to her church. In the end, guan zhu and i turned up. we got to witness ann singing 'live' and solo. that's not bad, eh? haha. It was as if a totally different person who had sung in front of me. From the tone i have said, you can easily decipher that i was rather impressed with her.
I felt this church was although small, but it was like a small family gathering where everyone is not neglected. Anyone from the floor can respond to the host immediately and they can joke with each other during the game session. That was the warmth i felt there. I felt as though i had visited ann's second house because ann seems to know everyone and the pastors also came to say 'hi' to her. By the way, the church is old as me and as well as guan zhu and ann.
So after the session, we were talking. I still remember guan zhu saying to ann that the session ended at 4pm. Below is the actual conversation:
Guan Zhu: “四点end。”
Me: “四点不是Ann。”
Haha. We all broke into laughters. So coincidental that both the words "end" and "Ann" sound the same.
Anyway, these weeks i have been meeting my friends' family members. Only a few weeks ago i have seen michelle's.
Cannot seem to figuure a knot in my head these few days. i hope i can get it done asap because time is running out. Like what i always like to say and my golden line - "Time can solve any problem" （时间能解决一切）. Hopefully, everything turns out as wished.
I thought that i would not have any activity. But out of nowhere, ann actually asked us to go to her church. In the end, guan zhu and i turned up. we got to witness ann singing 'live' and solo. that's not bad, eh? haha. It was as if a totally different person who had sung in front of me. From the tone i have said, you can easily decipher that i was rather impressed with her.
I felt this church was although small, but it was like a small family gathering where everyone is not neglected. Anyone from the floor can respond to the host immediately and they can joke with each other during the game session. That was the warmth i felt there. I felt as though i had visited ann's second house because ann seems to know everyone and the pastors also came to say 'hi' to her. By the way, the church is old as me and as well as guan zhu and ann.
So after the session, we were talking. I still remember guan zhu saying to ann that the session ended at 4pm. Below is the actual conversation:
Guan Zhu: “四点end。”
Me: “四点不是Ann。”
Haha. We all broke into laughters. So coincidental that both the words "end" and "Ann" sound the same.
Anyway, these weeks i have been meeting my friends' family members. Only a few weeks ago i have seen michelle's.
Cannot seem to figuure a knot in my head these few days. i hope i can get it done asap because time is running out. Like what i always like to say and my golden line - "Time can solve any problem" （时间能解决一切）. Hopefully, everything turns out as wished.
Saturday, April 7, 2007
WHY? readandberead?
Title: WHY? readandberead?
readandberead? Actually had no idea why i came up with this particular name. However, after creating this blog name, i have managed to think out a good reason that is ... 'read' refers to my blog viewers and as for 'be read' simply means that me, myself the blogger whose life and thoughts are read out by any of you out there. Thus if you are to put the phrases together, it means you and me. So with you reading and i diligently blogging on, this blog will come to 'live'. And hardly do many wild dreams come true, hence i hope i can have the lasting stamina to keep the blog alive and as a result, make a miracle.
Affinity you may call it that i have between me and my blog name. Because i had originally no idea at all what to name my blog. Just as i thought i had come up with a not-so-well-thought name, it actually turned out to be that meaningful (to me). haha. That's good.
So it is time for so lame Q&A:
The question for the day: SO what kind of topic would you be blogging more on?
ANS: i think for me, as i am not the type that will reveal all in my blog, so indirectly i may just convey the meaning in my blog. I think i wouldn't blog negative issues in my blog, for this blog will form a record of what i have done and i would 'no no' want any kind of bad memories.
Qns: Are you a soccer fan? What club do you support?
Ans: sure. any club that plays well, i will support but provided that the teams must be full of flair.
See you at the next blog post.
readandberead? Actually had no idea why i came up with this particular name. However, after creating this blog name, i have managed to think out a good reason that is ... 'read' refers to my blog viewers and as for 'be read' simply means that me, myself the blogger whose life and thoughts are read out by any of you out there. Thus if you are to put the phrases together, it means you and me. So with you reading and i diligently blogging on, this blog will come to 'live'. And hardly do many wild dreams come true, hence i hope i can have the lasting stamina to keep the blog alive and as a result, make a miracle.
Affinity you may call it that i have between me and my blog name. Because i had originally no idea at all what to name my blog. Just as i thought i had come up with a not-so-well-thought name, it actually turned out to be that meaningful (to me). haha. That's good.
So it is time for so lame Q&A:
The question for the day: SO what kind of topic would you be blogging more on?
ANS: i think for me, as i am not the type that will reveal all in my blog, so indirectly i may just convey the meaning in my blog. I think i wouldn't blog negative issues in my blog, for this blog will form a record of what i have done and i would 'no no' want any kind of bad memories.
Qns: Are you a soccer fan? What club do you support?
Ans: sure. any club that plays well, i will support but provided that the teams must be full of flair.
See you at the next blog post.
debut
Title: debut
Finally got a personal blog. A new blog has begun. To begin is easy but to carry on writing will be tough and not any easy. Anyway, have been doing attachment these days. Moreover, they are no ordinary days but holidays that ought to be used instead. There are many great things to what holidays bring. They can include - lifting moods, hibernation, stay away from stressful stimli.
How unfortunately, they are all gone for these current holidays. Although i have not been mentally fresh for the new season (semester), i have gained alot more in terms of experience. Hopefully, things are better ahead for me this year.
Qns: So what actually triggered the bullet of interest to make me start a blog?
Ans: well, perhaps, i think i have the time to blog all my rubbish thoughts here.
Qns: Any other reason for that?
Ans: same ans as above.
Qns: Are you really sure there is only one reason?
Ans: maybe not. haha, i am kind of a fickle-minded.
SO from the above short conversation you can see i am kind of wishy-washy. That's it for now.
Finally got a personal blog. A new blog has begun. To begin is easy but to carry on writing will be tough and not any easy. Anyway, have been doing attachment these days. Moreover, they are no ordinary days but holidays that ought to be used instead. There are many great things to what holidays bring. They can include - lifting moods, hibernation, stay away from stressful stimli.
How unfortunately, they are all gone for these current holidays. Although i have not been mentally fresh for the new season (semester), i have gained alot more in terms of experience. Hopefully, things are better ahead for me this year.
Qns: So what actually triggered the bullet of interest to make me start a blog?
Ans: well, perhaps, i think i have the time to blog all my rubbish thoughts here.
Qns: Any other reason for that?
Ans: same ans as above.
Qns: Are you really sure there is only one reason?
Ans: maybe not. haha, i am kind of a fickle-minded.
SO from the above short conversation you can see i am kind of wishy-washy. That's it for now.
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