ROARS! dinner

6 dec - AWESOME NIGHT! Luckily i did not miss this dinner with dad, mummy, Boon, Aaron, Dajie and Erjie. It was not pre-planned. It was random and last minute. But it turned out to be the best dinner. ROARS!

After some storytelling, we roared and it never really ended. But the best part of the entire dinner was when we made to drink weird combination drinks. Boon was behind all this. Unfortunately, Er-jie was the first victim. You should have seen her stunned look. It was fun.

queer feeling

It was a queer feeling but certainly, it was familiar and filled with warmth. To embrace the truth, it was a positive one. Hope everything is fine for my family and friends.

Visiting wanted

Just a few days, i was alerted to a piece of bad news. The place is closing down in December. How sad! But this move might not come as a surprise. Visiting them soon!

leave me alone

I believe it is a period of worries, surprisingly. November and December are the months that we all should indulge ourselves in fun. There are many things in my mind and they are all worries. Can they just leave me alone?

Hospital stay

Sadly, I left. It was abrupt. It caught everyone by surprise especially myself. It must be a lie to say that i do not miss my friends there. Still, i packed my bag and i left them my cards with messages from my heart.

Opposed to what some people might say, this is a place - i find serenity, love, joy. People will usually associate this place to an in-between of life and death or maybe a place for living dead. So it is better to avoid it. It is true that we all should avoid it since visiting it means that we are injured or on the verge of death.

But somehow, i fell in love with it. I just fell in love with the hospital. You may find it hard to believe. Once, i resisted living in hospital but it took me merely 2 nights and 2 days to like it. How could i bear to leave it when there is a good system that nurses me back to health? How could i bear to leave it when i make friends there? How could i bear to leave it when i was told i was her first patient she did a jab on?

They were way too good.

They were willing to open up a conversation with me. They were meticulous with handling my injury. Best of all, they could carry on with their work with much professionalism, even though it is an emotionally and physically tiring job.

During my stay, it was not just about being happy. Pain did come along. It was the pain i experienced and they were always around to fight it away. I was not alone. Also, i had difficulty moving about. But not to worry, they were with me when i wanted to move about.

I felt so much at home. Not lonely, not unhappy. Seriously, how many times are you asked the questions: "how are you", "is it still painful" in your life? By showing concerns and care, the patients can really recover faster.

Then in the middle of the night, they will still do their rounds and check on each patient. When something is amiss, they will solve it even when the patient is asleep. I had my night when people kept shouting for nurses. It was really amusing. I think only people who were there with me will understand it.

As a person, i may be emotional. But the point is i have come to appreciate them so much. I just wonder how they are doing now. I think it is still business as usual - Ward 12C, Bed 81A.

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affectionate words

Those were the affectionate words - i miss you. I miss you too.

November - please run faster

I am back. Things have changed in just weeks. More importantly, the time has passed quickly. Yesterday, i received my matriculation package from my university. Finally, i can confirm myself a place in that learning institute.

Year 2009 is going to be over soon and i will be studying again in less than a year. This is great. I can be myself again. But for now, i am waiting for the time to travel at light speed. :)

leaving soon

i am leaving soon and that's so fast.

the same old question

Alas, he ponders. Again, it is the same old question he stucks at - when will they meet again? She is missed.

Leaving

Leaving creates meetings. Sometimes, it is the leaving that makes friends meet again. If i am still in town daily, i think we won't meet already. Less than a week and i will be away once again - 9 oct 2009.

LONGER WEEKENDS

Time for a longer weekend next week, at least. I need to enjoy myself before i disappear. i am leaving soon:( for some time. There will be better times in december, i hope. I need a good break from all these.


9 oct - the day to come.

Bleeding at the heart

Why, why do i feel bleeding at the heart?

heartbeat

To understand people is to feel the heartbeats. When people rattle their problems, close your eyes and listen. Imagine you have walked into their world. This world is directly controlled by the heart. When the world is at peace, you will hear the heart beating nicely. But when it is in a disaster, you will hear rushing beats in a disconcerted manner.

I feel your heartbeat, the way you do to it. I don't mind you sharing your problems with me:)

LEARNT

Everyday, i experience new scenarios. But after all these, i learnt more after listening to comments from people of different backgrounds.

next weekends pls

next weekends will be better and longer!

For Dickson - His 21st

Last night, it was definitely an one-off, real life drama. Originally it was a birthday party for my cousin, Dickson. I was having bubbles and whistles. As usual, i would actively take photos for memories.

Things turned out differently when Dickson drank. Somehow, the effects of his celebration spilled over to another party - Yvonne's - next door. Charged with alcohol, he did whatever you darn him to. Best of all, it was the way he joined in - loud and bold. That was enough to project an image of a sassy boyfriend.

Entered the room, filled with unknowns, he demanded,"Who's the birthday girl?" I thought it was probably all night he wanted to have fun in Yvonne's party but with the help of the green tea-flavoured alcohol, he transformed. The crowd was stunned. The birthday girl was summoned. At first, it was a simple handshake and birthday greeting. Then it was a simple photo shot. Then an exchange of contact. Not too much of a request. Then again, a new request came. How about drinking with hands intertwined?

Still, it was small case. Dramas are serialised in this case. So he re-entered the room. This time, he bellowed," Slap me!" It was better to slap than a no-show. Of course, Yvonne was reluctant. However, with 'official' permission given, she slapped half of her full strength. It was bad shot. Dickson demanded for double, tight slaps. So he was slapped and the drama ended with birthday greeting.

Perhaps the show was thought to be over. It was 3rd time lucky for Yvonne. He stormed the room. With his command, i brought him 2 chairs. He sat on one and hit on the other chair for Yvonne to sit on. He wanted to drink with her. By then, before them, it was a group of girls with cameras, camera phones and whatever the girls got so long as the devices could record the amazing moment. They were like paparazzi. So they drank. Somehow, the girl had problem drinking. Dickson drank it on her behalf.

So wasn't he just LOUD and BOLD that fateful night, recorded as 050909?

Don't worry about every day

Suddenly, i just had a surge of emotions to blog. Probably i have not done a proper writeup for the past few entries.

Currently i am living through a life bloated with worries. Like the economists will say, the future is bleak and uncertain. This creates fear. The fear to even make a step forward. Somehow, when mistakes are committed, punishments follow suit. These are things that would come at times unknowingly risking my free time burnt.

I am just tired of all the so-called preachings. Because i know what is right and wrong. And because i know certain things are based on relationship. That is why there is nothing absolute. Still, i must pass my time with worries on my back.

Maybe i shoud take things in stride. Stay calm.

"Don't worry about every day; because each day has its own worries and will be taken care of." - Kwan Chet

My friends - shufen and xiaoxin

My friends - shufen and xiaoxin

From small to large head!

Been ages since we met.

You can be great too!

I am not losing the aspect on humanity. But just that, he is not that godlike. You are not that worse off.

Mr. Tan = Mdm Tan?

Hui Li: You are Mr Tan so you haven't married right?

Mr. Tan: Yes.

Hui Li: So when you are married, you are Madam Tan.

Mr Tan: ----____----l l l

hello island

hello, island. i am home. Time flies when i am out. A tagboard is up finally.

a vehement desire

my heart contracts a little as the image of her illustrates in my head - a vehement desire.

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So i shall leave this song to accompany you, the readers for the next 2 weeks. Be back on 16 August. Update then:) See you then!

10, ten, hours in Singapore.

10, ten, hours in Singapore!

10 hours to flying off

10 hours to flying off.

I will come back stronger!

2 more days

2 more days to flying. A lot of things i still can't let go.

Before i fly

Before i make myself disappear from this part of the world, i met up with my old friends - Wei Hao, Darren, Cedrick, Edmund, Eugene, Cynthia, Michelle, Han Xiang, Hui Min, Yi Long and Guan Zhu. I want to meet them again.

Lives to die

People fear death; yet everyone lives to die.

week ended

Today, i went out with Terence, Chee Chuan and Chi On. My week ended just like that.

In 2 weeks' time, i will be away from Singapore. Counting down till that: 12 days to 1 Aug.

Cosmopolitan

It was Grand-uncle's birthday yesterday. It was celebrated at Cosmopolitan. It was a simple gathering, filled with family warmth. I took on the child's role and climbed up the obstacle at the playground.
The condo was grand and is surely motivating me to own one in the future.

Bad, bad attributes

Ruthless, vicious, sly, evil, fierce, arrogrant, power-hungry, vengeful, crafty, temperamental. All these are in the making of a brand new me? Barely 2 months and i have picked up so many bad, bad attributes.

Singing on truck

Singing on the truck was a great thing. This was so when i fought against the gushing wind to hear myself singing. It brought out the damaging fury hidden within my body as I sang aloud.

Could i be happy again? Next week, i shall see.

Life's a crap

Life's a crap. I heard of ridiculous or rather, outrageous things. What is the world coming to? For a day, a couple can break up and then mend their relationship the next. That is how serious this kind of joke could even happen. I just laughed.

Sometimes, when i work too hard, the rewards are craps. I just can't believe it. It is hard to convince myself. My life is made for other pleasures (work and more work). This is an 'intelligent' answer to my misery. I just lauged again.

Shopping day

It was shopping day yesterday. I bought:

- 1 pant
- 1 shirt
- 1 t shirt
- 1 polo shirt
- 1 belt
- 2 watches
- 1 bag

My head still hurts.

Michael Jackson - remembering the great

If you have been catching news these days, there is one common news that all newspapers share - news on Michael Jackson. There were reports like investigations carried on his death cause, his funeral and his children finally revealed. Across the internet websites, there were millions of comments flooded to worship him.

His death at the age of 50 was considered sudden and too early. It came on 25 June 09. That was the day he finally took his last breath and he finally had his break from this world, often in a misery. Ironically, 25 June 09 happened to be one of the happiest day i had this year.

Back to the topic, he died the day before his 50 concerts started. Moreover, his first week's concerts were postponed. This series of concert was supposed to help him resurrect his career. It was supposed to 'clean' him due to the bad happenings such as linkinig as a paedophile.

No, the concerts did not take off. Instead, the whole world wept for him as he made his eternal leave. He left as the King of Pop, a well-known singer in the 1980s, a legend born after singing legends such as Elvis Presley, Frank Sinatra.

Seriously, it was his sudden death that everyone took his attention on him again. It was this that everyone realised the importance of his existence. The standard music he produced that no musician currently has eclipsed past. His trademark moonwalk, the record album "Thriller" were what really took the world by storm for once. He has won over the world hands down.

Now at least, he left as a hero and we will all remember in hearts. At the end of the day, it is better to cherish what we have presently. Thank you, Michael.

Billie Jean - Michael Jackson

Scrapbook

I spent the whole day doing some scrapbook and it is not really done. But still, i took it to them. I don't have enough time to do the scrapbook and i cannot help it. I need more time of my own.

waiting for next week

I will have my longer break next week. haha.

work rams me hard

Work is taking its toil on me. Busy to me is good. This is because i can pass time much faster than usual. Also, i believe that if i work hard, i can be rewarded handsomely. But suddenly, it is getting overwhelming and i find myself in an unfamiliar state - 'i like to grumble about it'.

There is more to this. I am emotion-driven. Like waves, my emotions can come and hit in a big but dangerous way. Sometimes, work piles up even as i am trying my best to finish it. I have never stopped. I could only picture myself moving from point to point to deliver items and completing a paper work at the desk. Whenever my boss happens to see me working diligently or not, he will direct more work to me. The workload increases.

To a point, my head spins and i need to pause as my world seems to spiral out of control. In this short moment, i teared involuntarily. I could not rein 100% control over my work when a cock-up appeared and any of this is unpardonable. It is as though the phase,"To err is human" is invalid. Instead, I must ensure that everything runs smoothly and that any mistake is not caused by me. If not, i will have to bear the consequences and continue suffering in silence.

But once home, i just want to be myself in my precious free time, insulated from the week's long work. I want to close this work week as soon as possible. It has been dull though.

BB June holidays

BB June holidays. I cannot wait for the November/December to be here. haha. Perhaps outing with them again? I hope so.

250609

I was gifted on 25 June 2009. It was a really rare gift and i am glad that i was about to spend time with them. They were great. Now i just hope i can meet them soon again with the supposed gifts ready.

Miss out the fun, maybe

I just got a feeling i will miss out on the fun coming thursday. It just does not feel right now. I want to join in the fun. What a pity, there is a great chance i CANNOT go! I feel robbed. I hope not.

Be magnanimous

This morning, i finally picked myself up from the comfy bed. It has been hard since i have missed my sunday run for the past 3 weeks. My extra motivation to run came from the fact i did not run during the weekdays and i missed my regular running. It just took a week without running and running can be quite a difficult task. All the regular breathing and correct pacing are out of tune.

Later, i met Michelle and Cynthia for breakfast, although it was previously agreed we would run together. I ordered a bowl of century egg porridge. Michelle was turned off by the century egg. Then she went on to explain that it was the yolk that tasted weird.

So i told her, "If you like egg white, you will like egg yolk as well." It was a statement of being magnanimous. A person, like century egg, cannot be perfect. A person has his/her positive points as well as negative ones. Judge the person overall. When you turn a blind eye to his/her weakness and you still feel comfortable doing so, the person before you might be the one you have been waiting for. Moreover, you will be magnanimous enough to accept him/her. However when the person just does not suit you, pass it up. At the end of the day, it is about if you want to eat the century egg or not. It is that simple.

But then, when both get together, it is crucial that the initial feeling still maintained the same, not an inch of change. When both meet regularly, there is bound to be disagreements. However, these disagreements should not be detrimental to state of the relationship. If possible, stay happy and simple with occasional romantic displays. This will keep the flame of love burning. Be magnanimous as both involved must for the relationship to carry on.

the real tests

"All the real tests are setting in. Whether i am prepared or not, it is a make-or-break time now." -Kwan Chet

Japanese Buffet

Today, i had a japanese buffet with my grandmother and cousins. I booked the place at Kuishibo under the name 'chet'. Somehow, when i got there, it was spelt as Kate. OHMY! My name has been changed to a female one. I am NOT a girl. haha, craps.

happy day - 13 JUN

My saturday was divided into 2 parts. In the day, i had the company of Aik Nen, Maureen and Amy while at night, i went to Michelle's 21 birthday. They were fun but more fun when i got to take a lot of photos. There was about 200 photos. Photograhy is cool when the pictures taken meet my point of satisfaction. I just like some of the photos taken. At East Coast Park, i even climbed up a tree, just to take photos.

To Aik, wish you all the best in everything that you do and we shall meet up soon!

To Michelle, happy birthday and wish you a great 21st year!

in the middle of the year 2009

WOOOOHOOOO, JUNE. I am half-way through year 2009. Another 6 months and it will be year 2010. I must continue to fight on daily as all this is coming to an end soon. It is the perseverance that counts. I am looking forward to next weekend filled with fun, hopefully.

regret

"If this image of her is the last i would see, i regret it very much." - Kwan Chet

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Drew SNOOPY, SPONGEBOB, DROOPY

Haha. I took up some time to draw some cartoon characters. haha. They were SNOOPY, SPONGEBOB, DROOPY.

SNOOPY

close up

haha, it is SPONGE BOB

He is just happy, isn't he?

What should i draw next? hahas. craps.