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Love is Punishment

2011-06-25T01:00:00.001+08:00

OST from my favourite drama! :)

Absence

2010-09-25T22:38:00.002+08:00

Absence really makes the heart grow fonder. Sometimes, when you fall in love with someone, there is a time when you cannot meet each other. But it might just work out. It gives you time to cool down and really think hard on your feelings. This is a testing period and the feelings stay the same. It might just further ascertain your feelings.

school, so far

2010-08-09T23:27:00.003+08:00

It has been a blast for the past 2 weeks. I have had fun-filled camps and activities in school. In fact, i have been meeting and making new friends. It is just getting better to know more people. Moreover, it is amusing to make friends of different backgrounds and talents. Some could dance while others could draw well. I have been impressed.

Then came the mind-testing system which i have to use to bid for the modules i need to study. I failed in getting one module out of 3. Hopefully, i can get the last one in my next window (which ends tomorrow).

I want to study 4 credit units this term, pleaaaaseee!

that day

2010-06-19T16:58:00.002+08:00

That day, i went back. Notably, there was a vast change. There were plenty of new faces. Nonetheless, the older ones still greeted me with that ever-cheerful welcome. They were always asking how i was. I was deeply touched by their curiosity. But came a funny boy who asked for my name and my mum's. I was surprised. I did not know him at all but his facial expression was lovely.

Blues

2010-04-25T15:10:00.003+08:00

I am tearing each week away from my life right now. Blues about my situation? I think about everyone in my state would do so. That is because right from the start, nobody wanted it to begin. Ultimately, I am heading towards the goal of my life and i got one chance now. It is best to take down the chance well with the all necessary (and unpleasant) experience i have gained. All the best for the future:)

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Renewed confidence

2010-04-18T15:18:00.003+08:00

2 days ago, i stepped upon the same stage last year. It was the same stage where i was presented award for being the second best in the cohort. Never was i expecting to rise up to another ceremony and for a different award. It was a recognition but ultimately it marks my commitment in these past (close to) 2 years. Whether i deserve the recent award, it will be proved in the next 2 months.

With that, i am hoping to don on an usual but renewed aura of confidence and bringing an end to my one time commitment, in style. :)

change to the past

2010-02-21T09:28:00.005+08:00

There will be a big change this year. But this change will be a familiar one. But the question mark lies in how fast i can adapt BACK to it. It is studying again. From what i heard, it is not that easy and it is crucial to do some read up before entering university. Well, i have a deep rot in my head. With this, i shall find a way to read up on Econonmics. GOOD LUCK, Kwan Chet!

Freedom felt

2010-02-13T00:43:00.001+08:00

CNY Eve is just tomorrow. I can just feel that the end is near with each passing months. Another 7 months and i will be free!

31 Dec 2009

2010-01-01T14:42:00.004+08:00

31 Dec 2009 began when i plodded my way to the Centre again but for the very last time. For some, it might be the last time we ever met on this surface. It was slightly more toned down. However, where there is distance, the hearts came closer than ever. Ms. Lynn called me and we chatted for a while. Surprisingly, Wuwu called and so we chatted on the phone for over an hour. Wuwu entertained us with his guitar skills and jokes. While doing so, Cheryl approached me on Facebook. Soon she was invited to the conference. When we were all done, it was 2 hours plus call.

Then i headed straight to Ion Orchard. As usual, i was late. Fish & Co was the place where Cynthia, Han Xiang, Yi Long and me met. But the weirdest thing was to come. I had an impulse to do the silliest thing on earth. So i did. I asked the waitress for her number. Surprisingly, she gave and her name as well. I think the people around me were stunned so was the girl. This might just be the last crazy thing i did last year and in many years to come.

Still, we got to see Michelle accidentally in her bf's car. It was coincidental.

Year 2010 has arrived. The breath of freedom is ringing the bells. I think my time is going to come soon.

My new year resolutions will be:

- time to fly faster and i can study
- get back my freedom
- do extraordinary acts
- meet my lost friends

ROARS! dinner

2009-12-07T18:02:00.005+08:00

6 dec - AWESOME NIGHT! Luckily i did not miss this dinner with dad, mummy, Boon, Aaron, Dajie and Erjie. It was not pre-planned. It was random and last minute. But it turned out to be the best dinner. ROARS!

After some storytelling, we roared and it never really ended. But the best part of the entire dinner was when we made to drink weird combination drinks. Boon was behind all this. Unfortunately, Er-jie was the first victim. You should have seen her stunned look. It was fun.

queer feeling

2009-11-19T18:45:00.005+08:00

It was a queer feeling but certainly, it was familiar and filled with warmth. To embrace the truth, it was a positive one. Hope everything is fine for my family and friends.

Visiting wanted

2009-11-18T17:12:00.003+08:00

Just a few days, i was alerted to a piece of bad news. The place is closing down in December. How sad! But this move might not come as a surprise. Visiting them soon!

leave me alone

2009-11-15T17:21:00.002+08:00

I believe it is a period of worries, surprisingly. November and December are the months that we all should indulge ourselves in fun. There are many things in my mind and they are all worries. Can they just leave me alone?

Hospital stay

2009-11-11T18:59:00.012+08:00

Sadly, I left. It was abrupt. It caught everyone by surprise especially myself. It must be a lie to say that i do not miss my friends there. Still, i packed my bag and i left them my cards with messages from my heart.

Opposed to what some people might say, this is a place - i find serenity, love, joy. People will usually associate this place to an in-between of life and death or maybe a place for living dead. So it is better to avoid it. It is true that we all should avoid it since visiting it means that we are injured or on the verge of death.

But somehow, i fell in love with it. I just fell in love with the hospital. You may find it hard to believe. Once, i resisted living in hospital but it took me merely 2 nights and 2 days to like it. How could i bear to leave it when there is a good system that nurses me back to health? How could i bear to leave it when i make friends there? How could i bear to leave it when i was told i was her first patient she did a jab on?

They were way too good.

They were willing to open up a conversation with me. They were meticulous with handling my injury. Best of all, they could carry on with their work with much professionalism, even though it is an emotionally and physically tiring job.

During my stay, it was not just about being happy. Pain did come along. It was the pain i experienced and they were always around to fight it away. I was not alone. Also, i had difficulty moving about. But not to worry, they were with me when i wanted to move about.

I felt so much at home. Not lonely, not unhappy. Seriously, how many times are you asked the questions: "how are you", "is it still painful" in your life? By showing concerns and care, the patients can really recover faster.

Then in the middle of the night, they will still do their rounds and check on each patient. When something is amiss, they will solve it even when the patient is asleep. I had my night when people kept shouting for nurses. It was really amusing. I think only people who were there with me will understand it.

As a person, i may be emotional. But the point is i have come to appreciate them so much. I just wonder how they are doing now. I think it is still business as usual - Ward 12C, Bed 81A.

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affectionate words

2009-11-07T19:13:00.002+08:00

Those were the affectionate words - i miss you. I miss you too.

November - please run faster

2009-11-01T21:11:00.003+08:00

I am back. Things have changed in just weeks. More importantly, the time has passed quickly. Yesterday, i received my matriculation package from my university. Finally, i can confirm myself a place in that learning institute.

Year 2009 is going to be over soon and i will be studying again in less than a year. This is great. I can be myself again. But for now, i am waiting for the time to travel at light speed. :)

leaving soon

2009-10-09T00:18:00.000+08:00

i am leaving soon and that's so fast.

the same old question

2009-10-07T00:26:00.002+08:00

Alas, he ponders. Again, it is the same old question he stucks at - when will they meet again? She is missed.

Leaving

2009-10-03T12:45:00.004+08:00

Leaving creates meetings. Sometimes, it is the leaving that makes friends meet again. If i am still in town daily, i think we won't meet already. Less than a week and i will be away once again - 9 oct 2009.

LONGER WEEKENDS

2009-09-26T23:38:00.004+08:00

Time for a longer weekend next week, at least. I need to enjoy myself before i disappear. i am leaving soon:( for some time. There will be better times in december, i hope. I need a good break from all these.

9 oct - the day to come.

Bleeding at the heart

2009-09-25T22:32:00.003+08:00

Why, why do i feel bleeding at the heart?

heartbeat

2009-09-21T19:58:00.004+08:00

To understand people is to feel the heartbeats. When people rattle their problems, close your eyes and listen. Imagine you have walked into their world. This world is directly controlled by the heart. When the world is at peace, you will hear the heart beating nicely. But when it is in a disaster, you will hear rushing beats in a disconcerted manner.

I feel your heartbeat, the way you do to it. I don't mind you sharing your problems with me:)

LEARNT

2009-09-20T12:05:00.002+08:00

Everyday, i experience new scenarios. But after all these, i learnt more after listening to comments from people of different backgrounds.

next weekends pls

2009-09-13T02:15:00.002+08:00

next weekends will be better and longer!

For Dickson - His 21st

2009-09-06T15:36:00.002+08:00

Last night, it was definitely an one-off, real life drama. Originally it was a birthday party for my cousin, Dickson. I was having bubbles and whistles. As usual, i would actively take photos for memories.

Things turned out differently when Dickson drank. Somehow, the effects of his celebration spilled over to another party - Yvonne's - next door. Charged with alcohol, he did whatever you darn him to. Best of all, it was the way he joined in - loud and bold. That was enough to project an image of a sassy boyfriend.

Entered the room, filled with unknowns, he demanded,"Who's the birthday girl?" I thought it was probably all night he wanted to have fun in Yvonne's party but with the help of the green tea-flavoured alcohol, he transformed. The crowd was stunned. The birthday girl was summoned. At first, it was a simple handshake and birthday greeting. Then it was a simple photo shot. Then an exchange of contact. Not too much of a request. Then again, a new request came. How about drinking with hands intertwined?

Still, it was small case. Dramas are serialised in this case. So he re-entered the room. This time, he bellowed," Slap me!" It was better to slap than a no-show. Of course, Yvonne was reluctant. However, with 'official' permission given, she slapped half of her full strength. It was bad shot. Dickson demanded for double, tight slaps. So he was slapped and the drama ended with birthday greeting.

Perhaps the show was thought to be over. It was 3rd time lucky for Yvonne. He stormed the room. With his command, i brought him 2 chairs. He sat on one and hit on the other chair for Yvonne to sit on. He wanted to drink with her. By then, before them, it was a group of girls with cameras, camera phones and whatever the girls got so long as the devices could record the amazing moment. They were like paparazzi. So they drank. Somehow, the girl had problem drinking. Dickson drank it on her behalf.

So wasn't he just LOUD and BOLD that fateful night, recorded as 050909?

Don't worry about every day

2009-08-30T15:05:00.005+08:00

Suddenly, i just had a surge of emotions to blog. Probably i have not done a proper writeup for the past few entries.

Currently i am living through a life bloated with worries. Like the economists will say, the future is bleak and uncertain. This creates fear. The fear to even make a step forward. Somehow, when mistakes are committed, punishments follow suit. These are things that would come at times unknowingly risking my free time burnt.

I am just tired of all the so-called preachings. Because i know what is right and wrong. And because i know certain things are based on relationship. That is why there is nothing absolute. Still, i must pass my time with worries on my back.

Maybe i shoud take things in stride. Stay calm.

"Don't worry about every day; because each day has its own worries and will be taken care of." - Kwan Chet

My friends - shufen and xiaoxin

2009-08-29T21:49:00.002+08:00

My friends - shufen and xiaoxin

From small to large head!

Been ages since we met.

You can be great too!

2009-08-29T09:59:00.004+08:00

I am not losing the aspect on humanity. But just that, he is not that godlike. You are not that worse off.

Mr. Tan = Mdm Tan?

2009-08-24T20:03:00.003+08:00

Hui Li: You are Mr Tan so you haven't married right?

Mr. Tan: Yes.

Hui Li: So when you are married, you are Madam Tan.

Mr Tan: ----____----l l l

hello island

2009-08-17T10:15:00.007+08:00

hello, island. i am home. Time flies when i am out. A tagboard is up finally.

a vehement desire

2009-07-31T19:43:00.005+08:00

my heart contracts a little as the image of her illustrates in my head - a vehement desire.

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So i shall leave this song to accompany you, the readers for the next 2 weeks. Be back on 16 August. Update then:) See you then!

10, ten, hours in Singapore.

2009-07-31T14:34:00.001+08:00

10, ten, hours in Singapore!

10 hours to flying off

2009-07-31T14:02:00.002+08:00

10 hours to flying off.

I will come back stronger!

2 more days

2009-07-29T20:43:00.001+08:00

2 more days to flying. A lot of things i still can't let go.

Before i fly

2009-07-26T16:48:00.005+08:00

Before i make myself disappear from this part of the world, i met up with my old friends - Wei Hao, Darren, Cedrick, Edmund, Eugene, Cynthia, Michelle, Han Xiang, Hui Min, Yi Long and Guan Zhu. I want to meet them again.

Lives to die

2009-07-24T21:05:00.000+08:00

People fear death; yet everyone lives to die.

week ended

2009-07-19T19:40:00.004+08:00

Today, i went out with Terence, Chee Chuan and Chi On. My week ended just like that.

In 2 weeks' time, i will be away from Singapore. Counting down till that: 12 days to 1 Aug.

Cosmopolitan

2009-07-19T10:41:00.007+08:00

It was Grand-uncle's birthday yesterday. It was celebrated at Cosmopolitan. It was a simple gathering, filled with family warmth. I took on the child's role and climbed up the obstacle at the playground.
The condo was grand and is surely motivating me to own one in the future.

Bad, bad attributes

2009-07-17T21:15:00.003+08:00

Ruthless, vicious, sly, evil, fierce, arrogrant, power-hungry, vengeful, crafty, temperamental. All these are in the making of a brand new me? Barely 2 months and i have picked up so many bad, bad attributes.

Singing on truck

2009-07-12T20:53:00.003+08:00

Singing on the truck was a great thing. This was so when i fought against the gushing wind to hear myself singing. It brought out the damaging fury hidden within my body as I sang aloud.

Could i be happy again? Next week, i shall see.

Life's a crap

2009-07-12T16:25:00.005+08:00

Life's a crap. I heard of ridiculous or rather, outrageous things. What is the world coming to? For a day, a couple can break up and then mend their relationship the next. That is how serious this kind of joke could even happen. I just laughed.

Sometimes, when i work too hard, the rewards are craps. I just can't believe it. It is hard to convince myself. My life is made for other pleasures (work and more work). This is an 'intelligent' answer to my misery. I just lauged again.

Shopping day

2009-07-12T13:39:00.003+08:00

It was shopping day yesterday. I bought:

- 1 pant
- 1 shirt
- 1 t shirt
- 1 polo shirt
- 1 belt
- 2 watches
- 1 bag

My head still hurts.

Michael Jackson - remembering the great

2009-07-12T12:40:00.010+08:00

If you have been catching news these days, there is one common news that all newspapers share - news on Michael Jackson. There were reports like investigations carried on his death cause, his funeral and his children finally revealed. Across the internet websites, there were millions of comments flooded to worship him.

His death at the age of 50 was considered sudden and too early. It came on 25 June 09. That was the day he finally took his last breath and he finally had his break from this world, often in a misery. Ironically, 25 June 09 happened to be one of the happiest day i had this year.

Back to the topic, he died the day before his 50 concerts started. Moreover, his first week's concerts were postponed. This series of concert was supposed to help him resurrect his career. It was supposed to 'clean' him due to the bad happenings such as linkinig as a paedophile.

No, the concerts did not take off. Instead, the whole world wept for him as he made his eternal leave. He left as the King of Pop, a well-known singer in the 1980s, a legend born after singing legends such as Elvis Presley, Frank Sinatra.

Seriously, it was his sudden death that everyone took his attention on him again. It was this that everyone realised the importance of his existence. The standard music he produced that no musician currently has eclipsed past. His trademark moonwalk, the record album "Thriller" were what really took the world by storm for once. He has won over the world hands down.

Now at least, he left as a hero and we will all remember in hearts. At the end of the day, it is better to cherish what we have presently. Thank you, Michael.

Billie Jean - Michael Jackson

Scrapbook

2009-07-10T22:11:00.001+08:00

I spent the whole day doing some scrapbook and it is not really done. But still, i took it to them. I don't have enough time to do the scrapbook and i cannot help it. I need more time of my own.

waiting for next week

2009-07-04T17:54:00.002+08:00

I will have my longer break next week. haha.

work rams me hard

2009-07-04T17:38:00.006+08:00

Work is taking its toil on me. Busy to me is good. This is because i can pass time much faster than usual. Also, i believe that if i work hard, i can be rewarded handsomely. But suddenly, it is getting overwhelming and i find myself in an unfamiliar state - 'i like to grumble about it'.

There is more to this. I am emotion-driven. Like waves, my emotions can come and hit in a big but dangerous way. Sometimes, work piles up even as i am trying my best to finish it. I have never stopped. I could only picture myself moving from point to point to deliver items and completing a paper work at the desk. Whenever my boss happens to see me working diligently or not, he will direct more work to me. The workload increases.

To a point, my head spins and i need to pause as my world seems to spiral out of control. In this short moment, i teared involuntarily. I could not rein 100% control over my work when a cock-up appeared and any of this is unpardonable. It is as though the phase,"To err is human" is invalid. Instead, I must ensure that everything runs smoothly and that any mistake is not caused by me. If not, i will have to bear the consequences and continue suffering in silence.

But once home, i just want to be myself in my precious free time, insulated from the week's long work. I want to close this work week as soon as possible. It has been dull though.

BB June holidays

2009-06-28T19:16:00.003+08:00

BB June holidays. I cannot wait for the November/December to be here. haha. Perhaps outing with them again? I hope so.

250609

2009-06-28T19:13:00.002+08:00

I was gifted on 25 June 2009. It was a really rare gift and i am glad that i was about to spend time with them. They were great. Now i just hope i can meet them soon again with the supposed gifts ready.

Miss out the fun, maybe

2009-06-21T16:01:00.005+08:00

I just got a feeling i will miss out on the fun coming thursday. It just does not feel right now. I want to join in the fun. What a pity, there is a great chance i CANNOT go! I feel robbed. I hope not.

Be magnanimous

2009-06-21T13:01:00.005+08:00

This morning, i finally picked myself up from the comfy bed. It has been hard since i have missed my sunday run for the past 3 weeks. My extra motivation to run came from the fact i did not run during the weekdays and i missed my regular running. It just took a week without running and running can be quite a difficult task. All the regular breathing and correct pacing are out of tune.

Later, i met Michelle and Cynthia for breakfast, although it was previously agreed we would run together. I ordered a bowl of century egg porridge. Michelle was turned off by the century egg. Then she went on to explain that it was the yolk that tasted weird.

So i told her, "If you like egg white, you will like egg yolk as well." It was a statement of being magnanimous. A person, like century egg, cannot be perfect. A person has his/her positive points as well as negative ones. Judge the person overall. When you turn a blind eye to his/her weakness and you still feel comfortable doing so, the person before you might be the one you have been waiting for. Moreover, you will be magnanimous enough to accept him/her. However when the person just does not suit you, pass it up. At the end of the day, it is about if you want to eat the century egg or not. It is that simple.

But then, when both get together, it is crucial that the initial feeling still maintained the same, not an inch of change. When both meet regularly, there is bound to be disagreements. However, these disagreements should not be detrimental to state of the relationship. If possible, stay happy and simple with occasional romantic displays. This will keep the flame of love burning. Be magnanimous as both involved must for the relationship to carry on.

the real tests

2009-06-18T14:26:00.002+08:00

"All the real tests are setting in. Whether i am prepared or not, it is a make-or-break time now." -Kwan Chet

Japanese Buffet

2009-06-14T19:39:00.002+08:00

Today, i had a japanese buffet with my grandmother and cousins. I booked the place at Kuishibo under the name 'chet'. Somehow, when i got there, it was spelt as Kate. OHMY! My name has been changed to a female one. I am NOT a girl. haha, craps.

happy day - 13 JUN

2009-06-14T15:42:00.015+08:00

My saturday was divided into 2 parts. In the day, i had the company of Aik Nen, Maureen and Amy while at night, i went to Michelle's 21 birthday. They were fun but more fun when i got to take a lot of photos. There was about 200 photos. Photograhy is cool when the pictures taken meet my point of satisfaction. I just like some of the photos taken. At East Coast Park, i even climbed up a tree, just to take photos.

To Aik, wish you all the best in everything that you do and we shall meet up soon!

To Michelle, happy birthday and wish you a great 21st year!

in the middle of the year 2009

2009-06-07T19:30:00.002+08:00

WOOOOHOOOO, JUNE. I am half-way through year 2009. Another 6 months and it will be year 2010. I must continue to fight on daily as all this is coming to an end soon. It is the perseverance that counts. I am looking forward to next weekend filled with fun, hopefully.

regret

2009-05-31T19:41:00.010+08:00

"If this image of her is the last i would see, i regret it very much." - Kwan Chet

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Drew SNOOPY, SPONGEBOB, DROOPY

2009-05-31T16:51:00.007+08:00

Haha. I took up some time to draw some cartoon characters. haha. They were SNOOPY, SPONGEBOB, DROOPY.

SNOOPY

close up

haha, it is SPONGE BOB

He is just happy, isn't he?

What should i draw next? hahas. craps.

Good Luck, Kwan Chet!

2009-05-31T00:07:00.002+08:00

Till next year, it will be a test of mentality. If I pass it, i will be rated as mentally fit. But before that colourful ending does come, there will be many stages of the test. May I be granted the energy, mental strength to not quit in the toughest moment that i will ever meet in my life.

Good Luck, Kwan Chet!

Games

2009-05-25T21:24:00.004+08:00

On saturday, i went out with Aik, Gerry, Amy and Maureen. Well, there were a number of games played - UGLYDOLL, Dinosaur and Taboo. It was fun.

missed

2009-05-22T23:15:00.001+08:00

It was a beautiful memory - bitter-sweet one. There was not much an exchange. Tears were on the verge. It was mutually understood. The feeling of separation was too hard for anyone to accept. It just meant m-i-s-s-e-d, missed.

All's well

2009-05-17T21:27:00.002+08:00

Today i was told of something quite unfortunate although it does not occur to me nor does it affect me. But i just don't feel well after knowing it. Sometimes, life is alittle unfair to people. Some could start his company at a young age but some could lose the pillar of their life very young.

All's well for the affected ones as sunshine will be here one day.

Grace turned 20

2009-05-17T18:07:00.012+08:00

Grace turned 20 yesterday - 16 May. But then, we did a late celebration today with a simple lunch, at NYDC. When reached, we all gathered at Orchard MRT station (excluding Grace) and did the final touch up to the card. The card was done with sea creatues on it. Well, i just thought that Grace likes seafood (of all, stingray the most) so i drew them.

Then we went to Coffee Bean and played Saboteur. It was a round of it as we were not allowed to play there. Never mind, at least we enjoyed ourselves.

THE CARD

Aik Nen, XiaoTing, Karen and Yong Qing

Gerry and Karen

Group

Yong Qing, Xiao Ting and Grace

Karen, me and Aik Nen

Playing Saboteur

Grace with her card, my Eeyore and UHU Glue.

Supper

2009-05-17T00:01:00.003+08:00

I went out with Eugene the Poker face, Uncle Wang, 16:9, Lu Dan and Ying Long for supper at Katong. Well, Lu Dan and Poker Face drove us around from Katong to East Coast Park then to somewhere near Tenah Merah. haha. We had supper. I was so blur that night. haha. I was told to meet them at EUNOS STATION at 10.15pm. But i ended up at Paya Lebar searching for them. haha. In the end, i had to take the MRT to the next station (Eunos) after 15 minutes of walking around at Paya Lebar station.

Another incident happened when i was about to go home. Supposedly, i was to catch the last train after the meal at Katong. But somehow, i missed the last train. When i found out so, Lu Dan already drove away and i thought maybe i should cab home. The thought of spending over $20 killed the idea. I thought i could get a bus home. No there was not any bus. I was left with no choice but to call Lu Dan to fetch me and we continued with our drive-around and eating. The night ended when i went to stay at Uncle Wang's house.

Uncle Wang and Poker Face

Lu Dan and 16:9

Son Gohan

2009-05-10T20:03:00.004+08:00

This is a favourite hero of mine - Son Gohan (孙悟饭).

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a puff again - NO thank you!

2009-05-10T14:52:00.003+08:00

A box was labelled with the cautions and a picture of an ugly set of teeth tainted with black coloured tars. Still, it did not deter its users. Instead, the habit has seen an increase in females taking it. The trend is growing.

He took out a cigarette from the pack. Lighted, he tried to mimic how his friend smoked. He placed the butt at the lips and took a breath in. The smoke went in with a tinge of mint that tickled the throat. Immediately, he blew out the same smoke and coughed. No, it was not the correct way. So he tried under his friend's advice, to sip in the smoke. Ah, it seemed to work and he controlled it. Just as the newbie thought he learnt to smoke, he coughed out the smoke.

The smoke was about to be anywhere in the body. It was in the mind too. Perhaps, the breathing-in motion was so fast and furious that he could feel 'high' in the mind. It was giddy. The far-reaching consequences are much terrfiying. People bore cancer in any lungs and other body parts.

He finished the one and only stick. It kept him bemused over people hooking up on this uncool, unhealthy and of course expensive habit. A puff again - NO thank you!

Nightlife

2009-05-10T14:11:00.007+08:00

It was a friday evening; the most relaxing time of the week. Waiting in the queue for slightly more than 2 hours, they were all dressed up. It must be said that each and every visitor was in his/her best attire. Some waited halfway and left while others persisted. Finally, it was their turn. They did a short transaction at the entrance counter. Blinked, $25 per person was gone and in exchange, they got an entrance stamp and 2 complimentary drink tickets.

They were welcomed with a question from a guy dressed in a black suit as though he was some bodyguard, "Are you ready to go?". With understandable gestures, they were showed the way in. Shortly, a flock of people came in and took the lift with them.

As they left the lift and entered the dark room, they stood in an enclosed area where the DJs were spamming loud, hip-hop music. Everywhere they looked; people were either dancing to the groove or drinking to their fills.Voices were hardly heard.

While queuing at the bar for a drink, a red-faced man signed credits off his card as he paid his bill for another bottle of alcohol. In addition to the free drinks, they even ordered another jug of beer for 5 (priced at least $50). It was little wonder that clubbing was a richman's game.

The music was explosive but never to those whom were high on alcohol. They were enjoying the moments as the effects kicked in. Even if a person who knew nuts about dancing shook his body, he was considered a great dancer. So the cycle of ordering drink and then dancing was repeated for some. Their hard-earned income was diminishing rapidly. The drinks cost greatly but the party-goers who were by then drunk and easily signing bills (without minding the cost), never felt the pinch.

It was simply an eye opener as the party lasted throughout the night till as late as 4am. Perhaps it should be said the outlet was operating till EARLY 4am. It was scary how people splurged just over a night. This was really a rich people's game; an unhealthy one.

Friday Night

2009-05-10T14:05:00.005+08:00

Friday - i had a hotpot dinner with secondary school friends. I was crapping. To test the waitress, i held the menu in such a way the waitress could not see the dish names. So I propped a question,"什么是3110?". It was lettuce and she answered it correctly. Thanks to my craps. Next time, i am going to test more waiters/waitresses to see if they really memorised their menu well.

Then i went out with Introvert aka Uncle Wang (Marvin), Ah Neh Neh (Edmund), Lu Dan (Kenneth) and poker face (Eugene). Oh my, i went out with people carrying weird names. They were totally different once inside.

reality too beautiful

2009-05-03T01:04:00.005+08:00

"He wonders if reality is at times too beautiful a dream" - Kwan Chet

Memory and Sleep

2009-05-02T23:45:00.000+08:00

Memory and sleep. There is a certain relationship between them. It is believed that the memory can be improved when one sleeps. For example, students A and B learn a similar topic - matter - in a science lesson. Student A learns and sleeps after the lesson while student B continues to study the topic, despite having a tired mind.

Under this scenario, student A will get a better chance of remembering the content. This is due to the fact when one is asleep, the mind actually has an uninterrupted communication between the neocortex and the hipocampus (the brain's memory systems). Memories are first formed in the hipocampus. In order for memory to be retained, it has to be channeled to neocortex. The neocortex will form a more stable memory and simultaneously, it will form a link to related memories created earlier. Thus the new memory can be more likely remembered.

Sleeping is a way that memory can be better stored and yet the brain can help with organising the newly acquired information orderly. Maybe it is good option to sleep right away after you have finished your exam revision.

May is here

2009-05-01T01:17:00.000+08:00

May is here. Honestly, can the time just run faster? Maybe the time should visit the month of December as soon as possible. The happiest month in a year, for me at least.

An act of skiving - story

2009-04-29T20:40:00.002+08:00

The teacher asked a group of 3 students - Jon, Jen, and Jun to run errands for her. They were told to deliver the different sets of book consisting of science, maths and english to her desk. Jun proceeded to collect the pile of science books. Jon questioned his action.

Jun said with a cheeky smile,"See each of the science book is less than 0.5 cm thin and is light."

But to Jen, it was a matter of Jun trying to do less work than Jon and herself as the remaining books were much heavier. She felt that Jun could have helped to carry more books to share the workload fairly.

If you are given something to do with your friends. would you do the same as Jun?

Importance of time

2009-04-26T15:45:00.004+08:00

"He is invariably in a hurry - being in a hurry is one of the tributes he pays to life." - Elizabeth Bibesco

Truth

2009-04-24T23:19:00.002+08:00

The truth holds true only when it is useful. However, when another set of useful truth is discovered, the current one will be deemed invalid.

immutable feelings

2009-04-19T17:41:00.003+08:00

Immutable feelings are a testament for being faithful. A pity is that not many have the required discipline to withstand the changes. As such, there is only these few whom reach the state of art form and truly understand the deeper meaning of a true romance.

"The change you find in all living forms can never be found in my immutable feelings" - Kwan Chet

A bad decision

2009-04-18T01:07:00.004+08:00

A bad decision made. If the decision was concerning me only, it was not that bad after all. However, it was not. Although it was better not to blame anyone (except myself), i was supposedly in the best of my mood this week and i was made to make tough decision at this moment (in which i was supposed to enjoy myself). Yucks, i made a wrong move and it fouled up my night. I am going to sleep it and wake up a new mood tomorrow. Goodnight to this bad decision.

Crab

2009-04-12T21:16:00.002+08:00

I am simply craving for a chilli crab that i even drew it. Worse still, i might even drool over it. Crabs, i will save it for next weekends. haha.

每天

2009-04-12T20:53:00.002+08:00

紀佳松-每天 4.Mp3 -

还以为是浪漫的雾景
我呼吸被染黑的空气
雪不再结成了冰我们将沉默
阳光在遥远还剩下什么冷冷到最后
一年了候鸟没又回来
飞不远变成谁的晚餐
站在摩天高楼顶瞬间变平地
永远是什么一转眼就崩落
you are my everyday
哦每一天就像在预告
关于明天是个问号
确认心也无处可逃
you are my everyday
哦像你最初的容貌
回不去了而我的爱
你是否还愿意感觉的到
一年了候鸟没又回来
飞不远变成谁的晚餐
站在摩天高楼顶瞬间变平地
永远是什么一转眼就崩落
you are my everyday
哦每一天就像在预告
关于明天是个问号
确认心也无处可逃
you are my everyday
哦像你最初的容貌
回不去了而我的爱
你是否还愿意感觉的到
后悔吗 tell me why
在亲手毁灭之后晚秋
想伤害我最爱的人
听地球在哭泣
you are my everyday
哦每一天就像在预告
关于明天是个问号
确认心也无处可逃
you are my everyday
哦像你最初的容貌
回不去了我的爱
你是否还愿意感觉的到

A new singer in the industry but definitely worth supporting.

good customer service

2009-04-12T18:30:00.003+08:00

This actually happened and it did in a land where i thought that all the politeness and friendliness has gone up in smoke. I was taken aback from what i have seen. It was quite a rare sight to have a good customer service personnel.

The man who was attending to me, was meticulous enough in handling the product. This was when i saw the way he opened a phone box. It was pretty obvious he used some gentle force and technique to open the product in the least possible damaging way. The next salesperson whom i met even introduced me to another shop to buy the thing i need. Hardly would there be anyone in the market introduced his potential customers to his/her rivals. Both have displayed acts a level higher than being just polite and friendly. They were able to feel for the customers.

This has enhanced my shopping experience. What's more, i feel more than willing to part with my spending dollars for the products they are selling. Let's hope that there are more such customer service personnel. Handling customers daily is emotionally draining and i can do my part by being happy with their service to give them a little lift in their morale.

Good Friday

2009-04-11T15:24:00.011+08:00

Grandfather's birthday was on Good Friday and my whole family including my relatives went to Seafood Internationl, Playground @ Big Splash at East Coast Park. There were all the great seafood like crabs (my favourite), scallops, shark's fins, prawns. The taste of the food still lingers in my tongue.

BIG family of mine .

the SHUI siblings

some education for WINN

tour at the seafood market

AARON and ME 5

JUST SMILE

Annual Family Meeting (AFM)

are they dancing ?

WINN looks good

Running

2009-04-05T19:34:00.003+08:00

For the past sunday mornings, i have adopted a healthy activity - running. Never before in my life have i appreciate it so much. Suddenly, it is an addiction to run. The motivation that keeps me running is that i want to always break my personal best timing for 2.4km run. Actually, i have managed a 10mins 2 weeks ago. I want to get better record. haha.

In each run, i have to constantly remind myself to run faster as time is outrunning me. That is the toughest especially when i am running the 4th lap as by then, i will feel out of breath. But after each session, it makes me refreshed and i am faster than others now. haha.

cousins

2009-04-05T18:30:00.003+08:00

I went to pray to Grandfather today. There i saw my cousins. A few more weeks and Darren's life is going to change dramatically. It is going to be tough and different but i just hope he can cope well. A smooth rite of passage for him.

Another cousin of mine, Xin Yi. She is having her happy schooling life. I could tell it instantly when she mentioned to me that she had her friend's phone number. haha. She is much taller now.

Mummy's flowering birthday

2009-04-04T21:40:00.009+08:00

Mummy's flowering birthday was yesterday and it has passed. Once i was 'set' free, i quickly rushed to the Causeway Point's florist shop and got 4 blue roses. Blue roses, to me look better than red ones. They are somehow part of a new way of being romantic. Red roses seem like classic romance found in the 90s. Then i proceeded to my grandma's house and got my present done. The roses were part of a small artwork of mine.

Next, it was presenting the gift to Mummy. Dad, Boon and i gathered outside the house. We distributed the present and the cake among ourselves. Then the 3 of us entered the house, one by one, with an item and a piece of paper written," Happy Birthday to You".

Although Mummy is not someone who likes to celebrate birthday, i could tell she appreciated our effort. On top of that, the footwear was suitable for her (phew, lucky me). Later, she told me she wanted the Birkenstock sandal. All i could say now is that maybe that pair of Birkenstock will be hers next time.

Then her birthday was rounded up with a Thai-Chinese buffet this evening.

Nice artwork, isn't it? haha.

Bought Mummy's present

2009-03-29T19:41:00.004+08:00

I went out to buy Mummy's present. Before going out, i tried to find out the size of her foot. Apparently, there was no mentioning of her size on her sandals. Instead, i outlined the size of the sandal on a piece of paper in hope i could use when buying shoes. Then, i tried wearing her sandals. I must say it fitted quite nicely. That is the crux of the entire present-buying.

I reached OG at Bugis. As yesterday i had already decided on the specific footwear (with suggestion from Rui Min), i approached the sales representative about the footwear. As the conversation with the sales rep went, she could tell that i was quite unsure of the foot size. It was a good idea since Mummy's size is about the same as mine. But i felt awkward to wear a LADIES' footwear. To make sure i do not need to go back to exchange for another pair of footwear, I chose to wear the slippers for a few seconds. Pretending that it was a men's shoes, i wore it half-heartedly.

Craps. Hopefully, the present really fits into Mummy's feet. The truth will be revealed next friday.

Mistakes make a lesson, so do questions

2009-03-29T17:20:00.004+08:00

Mistakes make a lesson, so do questions.

These - mistakes, questions - generate learning points. Questioning is more of a pro-active way as it is done when one wants to clear doubts. However, mistakes come when one is unsure of his/her work.

For some, to question, it shows that one is slow and has slower rate of learning. Thus, they do not want to ask questions because they will be seen as weak. Mistakes happen when one has not fully understood the topic. 1 or 2 mistakes are pardonable. But when the mistakes snowball to 7 to 8 times. It is demoralising.

These barriers to questioning and mistakes have to be brought down. A positive behaviour will be; once in doubt, have the courage to bring up questions. Also, when plenty mistakes appear, have the determination to stop the mistakes from repeating.

a common phenomenon

2009-03-22T19:56:00.003+08:00

A common phenomenon

Yesterday, I took this picture, just out of my kitchen window. Actually the sky was in total red before turning into this form. Don't you find this sky just wonderful? It is an enjoyment to watch sunset, isn't it? It may be common in our day-to-day lives but in its own way, superb. It took a few seconds of my life away from me yet, it has given me a sense of serenity. I feel calm and i can smile easy.

friends forever

2009-03-21T21:13:00.002+08:00

20 March - the day before today. I saw some old friends. It has been approximately 3 months ago i saw them. Some changed. Some had shorter hair (but not as short as mine). Others remained as they were. We still had a relatively fun time. Friends are meant to be forever, i guess this is the meaning of being friends. Friends forever.

never quit

2009-03-21T20:48:00.004+08:00

When you are in a losing battle, do you choose to give up or to carry on fighting? Well, for me, i will carry on fighting. For all my life, i have been fighting a battle very unfavourable for me. In terms of intelligence, i am not bestowed with the best of it. Instead, i strive hard to become what i am today. Of course, there are times i am envy of people who are smarter as they can learn things much faster than i do. I have got a big problem concentrating in class some times. Nevertheless, i found my way of overcoming all these shortcomings.

My friend actually told me to give up this battle together with him. But i did not do it and disagreed with him. My perception is that to quit a losing battle shows that one is a loser. It is important that everyone has a winning attitude even in a losing race, battle, competition. Maybe, just maybe you might even overturn a losing battle and make it a winning one. Now i know that i have a couple of essential components in me that keeps me going on - the winning attitude and hardworking - although it can be quite tiring. But everyone has his/her own way of survival. Just make sure you find yours.

Quit a losing battle, then you are really a loser.

JR birthday photos

2009-03-21T20:23:00.008+08:00

the birthday card

Jiun Ru and Shu Bi

Jiun Ru. birthday mission. 21

2009-03-15T16:16:00.004+08:00

Today, i was on a mission with Daphne, Jing Hui, Michelle, Rui Min and Chitra. The mission was to surprise Jiun Ru. It has been like 4 years when i last saw her. With some information and help from Jiun Ru's mum, we infiltrated her house. We even got to see her childhood photos. hahas. She still looks when she was a child. Also, she adopted back her hairstyle of old. Then it was planned that Daphne will play the birthday song using Jiun Ru's piano while the rest of us, formed a choir and carried the cake.

Her mum alerted when she was walking home. Like in the past, she walked with her shoulder pushed upwards while her head bent downwards. Quickly, everyone was on high alert. I installed a camera some distance away from the main door to take video. In the end, she saw Daphne and she only started playing after that. Then we came out of the kitchen with the cake. Jiun Ru already found it weird when she saw the camera.

Anyway, I had fun with her dog - shu bi. It was a super friendly yet biased dog. Shu Bi only played with me when the girls did not bother it. hahah. It was my first time carrying a dog. haha.

Xiaoting birthday

2009-03-15T16:00:00.004+08:00

Yesterday, there was a celebration for Xiao Ting. It was a late celebration where we gathered for some snacks and doing some catching-up. We gave her a pair of slippers. Grace, Alisa, Feng Kai turned up. It has been 6 months since i last saw her. That's really long.

Xiaoting opening present

group

20 year old UNCLE

2009-03-07T13:14:00.002+08:00

From 6 March, i have been staying at Ping Chie's house, Hougang. It was a cousins' gathering and was my first time staying at his new house. For this week, i have not slept on my own bed at all. Maybe i should just lie myself flat on my bed during the afternoon nap tomorrow. Anyway, I saw this boy, Jayven, Ping Chie's nephew. This means that i am also his uncle. haha. I am a 20 year old uncle to a 5 year old boy. I just feel i am aging already despite my youthful age of only 20. A 20 year old uncle. haha.

5 year old nephew, BUT 20 year old uncle

Dinner

2009-03-01T16:38:00.003+08:00

Then yesterday, i had dinner with Cynthia, Ann, Michelle, Yi Long and Han Xiang at New York New York. It was meat, potatoes wedges and chickens. I still like the Signature Cold Chocolate that i had at Starbucks. It was simply great.

girls

boys

send Pearlyn off

2009-03-01T16:04:00.006+08:00

On friday night, i went to Pak Wing's house for a stayover. Grace, Karen, Amy, Maureen, Gerry and Aik Nen were there too. I did not sleep at all. I was gaming till early in the morning and we went to Changi Airport Terminal 1 to send Pearlyn off as she was leaving for China. It will be some time in June that Pearlyn is coming back. She left with us a grey sky that morning.

at the airport

Scissor, Paper, Stone

jaja

some people are just too tired in the MRT

haha. i almost placed my finger into the mouth

my retribution for making fun of people

I want to study

2009-02-22T17:11:00.003+08:00

There are no dreams bigger than studying in SMU for me now. I am just counting down to next year as i can get back to studies. Although it can be quite stressful, school life has never lost its sparks. What is enticing me to go back to school is that i can study Economics full-time! haha.

It is my personal 2010 goal.

ME

2009-02-20T23:33:00.002+08:00

As i smile through this round, i find myself sometimes silly, sometimes happy. But after a while, it is a mixture of this silliness and happiness that gives me the strength to grow confidently. This is me - as silly and happy as ever.

2009 - not great?

2009-02-18T06:03:00.004+08:00

Year 2009. It has not been that great, after all. Especially this week, there are bad news flying in the air at friend-to-friend to even global level where it concerns the global economy.

Globally, there are doubts appearing that President Obama's ability to solve the financial system in US. What's more, with this financial crisis of global nature, US needs the help of other nations to resolve the entire global financial system. This ideal solution will require billions and billions of people to change their spending, saving habits so as to ensure that the nations like US can become a exporting country and China, an importing country.

Then, i have a friend's mum who sadly passed away and my friend's classmate has as well. This is tragedy that i have witnessed, heard so far.

For me, I just hope that all the bad things will find its conclusion and we can all carry on with our lives happily, bravely.

Above mentioned is based on personal opinion and strictly does not represent any of the involved parties and has no bearing on the issue.

Daimon

2009-02-17T18:00:00.006+08:00

In every person, there is a 'daimon', a moral force of divine origin (as said by Socrates). You, yourself will be able to differentiate what is right or wrong, good or evil. Therefore, i agree it is also this same force that keeps driving you daily to get along with life. Whatever your mind thinks of, it has to be rectified by daimon. Daimon will let you know if you are doing fine through your conscience and feelings.

For example, a student can be studying daily from going for lessons in school to having enrichment programmes after school. These are what you are doing daily with a greater purpose in mind - to be somebody great one day or simply to live a better life in the future. Studying to you is a means to this purpose. This purpose is what you want in your life but you have yet to attain it and you know that by getting it, you will be happy.

Sometimes, daimon can make you decide to do things you've set your heart into it and you will do things that you never imagine you would do. Because you know that when there are missed opportunities, it is going to be painful. It must be crazy of me to do something i never thought i did today. At least, i was answerable to myself that i would never regret what i did. Instead, i felt that i did what i could.

That's why i believe daimon is something more than about telling right from wrong and vice versa. It is the driving force of everyone's life. With daimon aligning well with the ideas that you generated, life will be a miracle.

Pearlyn and Amy's Birthday

2009-02-17T15:23:00.007+08:00

15 Feb was used to celebrate the birthdays of Pearlyn and Amy. Although it was a late celebration, it is down to the thoughts and effort put in for them. It was held at Maureen's house. Before the surprise, we were all getting ready in the dark room. The candles were lit and Brandon was ready with his guitar. Before the music was played, Pearlyn saw us and we quickly started singing birthday song.

Pak Wing and his creation!

Melise and ZiYu

the cake, of course

the birthday people

we

Valentine's Day

2009-02-15T09:05:00.003+08:00

Valentine's Day. A day to mark the death of Saint Valentine. The man who defied Emperor Claudius at the Roman Empire. The Emperor wanted an army for himself. But many young, fit men were not willing to part with their loved ones. Instead, he came up with a crazy idea of passing a law to stop marriages. Saint Valentine, a priest, continued to arrange marriages for couples secretly. But when he was caught, he was given death sentence. During his days in jail, he met a fellow jailer's daughter and were able to get along well together. Before his execution, he left a note ending with the phrase, 'love from valentine'. Thus, 14 february became a day for lovers exclusively.

I spent my 2009 Valentine's day with family at my grandma's house. Never mind the fact i have no lover. But i still have with me, my family. My cousins (all the single ones) except Wei (who has a girlfriend and visited grandma earlier) were there. As usual, my fate with my "The One" has yet to come. It is just pretty good enough to get into the festive mood.

himself

2009-02-08T15:39:00.005+08:00

Mummy said." 你情绪化，充满幻想" That already summarized the kind of person he is - emotional and likes to dream. Perhaps she is right. Whenever the young man is required to make a decision, he uses his heart more than his head. As long as he has a comfortable feeling in a particular decision, he will be resolute in it and of course, he will not regret it. During tough times, he could hardly tame his temper.

Since young, he will be dreaming big. Some dreams he has can be exaggeratedly BIG and close to impossible to achieve. Mummy sometimes will write it off. But at other times, to give herself some hopes of a better life, she will choose to believe that one day, her son will come good and achieve all those big dreams. Only time will show that what the young man is made of.

February

2009-02-01T15:32:00.002+08:00

It is february. For the chinese, it is the seventh day of the Chinese New Year and it is ren ri meaning it is everyone's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to ALL!

The world is one month past year 2009 and there are 11 months to go. It is not that i can't wait to get older or become 21.

I wish time has a pair of wings and it can fly away as soon as possible (ASAP).